Part Of Me - A Niall Horan Fan Fiction

Chapter 19

( Niall's POV )

It's been three days since the accident but Jordy is still unconscious. Everything is messed up. This is indeed the worst part of my whole life. I don't have a reason to smile. I don't have the strength to laugh like I always do. I blame myself for all this and I won't be able to forgive myself.

I punched the wall with all my force, my anger. "Niall!" Louis shouted. "Stop blaming yourself." Zayn said. "How could I?!" I punched the wall again. Liam came rushing. "Stop that!" he said. "Let me see that." I refused to do so. "Let me see your hand, Niall." he insisted. He managed to grab my hand because he was bigger and stronger than me. I sighed, "That's nothing." "Nothing? You call that nothing?!" He revealed my horribly bruised hand with a bad wound to top it all. "See! You hurt yourself!" Louis shouted again. Harry grabbed me, "I'll go get him checked." I unwillingly followed him.

"You shouldn't have done it." Harry told me in his low voice. "Done what?" I asked. "What you said at the press con, you shouldn't have done it." he explained. Yes, I did it. I told the press that they have nothing to worry about because I'm still single and isn't seeing anyone. It was all just misconstrued. "I did that for her." I said. "How? She got in an accident for that bloody reason!" he exclaimed. "I don't want the press to get to her. You know how nasty they can be. I want her to live a peaceful life. Away from all this. She doesn't deserve it. Especially not after what happened." I explained. He just sighed. The nurse finally assisted us. She cleaned my wound first and then put a bandage around my hand afterwards. We thanked the lovely lady and went back to the hospital room.

We walked inside. It was very quiet. We saw Luke sitting beside Jordy's bed. He was whispering things to her. His eyes were slowly being soaked by tears. He held her hand the whole time.

"Niall, you know Jordy and Luke kinda--" "Yeah, yeah I know." Yeah, I know their story. I asked Calum about it. And the way I see it, Luke really loves her. I can see how much he cares. At first I felt really jealous because of all the people! You know... what a small world indeed. After a while I realized that I should do what's best for all of us, what's best for her most importantly.

"Excuse me, Luke?" I interrupted. "Oh--Niall, hello." he wiped away his tears. "I was just-- you know." I smiled at him. "Can I just talk to her for a second?" I asked. "Ofcourse." He stood up and stepped outside with Harry.

We're all alone now. Just the two of us. I sat on the edge of the bed. "You're still beautiful." I caressed her cheek. My eyes started to water.  "I'm so sorry. This is all my fault!" I held her hand and put it on my chest.

"I love you. Even if I haven't known you for quite a long time. I know, it's weird but I really do. I can't even explain it." I planted a kiss on her lips. "I love you so much. You're like my missing piece. And I'm so glad I found you. But, I already caused you so much pain. And-- and-- I don't want to cause you more sadness."

I feel like I'm about to burst. I was crying loud and hard. "If you ever look for me when you wake up, I-- I won't be there." I got cut off by my crying. I need to breathe. "Luke would be better for you. I know he won't hurt you. I know he loves you very much."

I gasped for air. "I'm letting you go. Not because I don't love you, but because I do. You're the missing part of me and I may not be able to be whole again but knowing you'll be happy is good enough for me." I kissed her one last time. "I love you."

I stood up. I wiped my tears away. Then I looked back at her and smiled, "See you around."