Part Of Me - A Niall Horan Fan Fiction

Chapter 16

( Jordy's POV )

I went rushing outside. The cold breeze sent shivers down my spine. I didn't mind. I knew I had to see Luke. Niall won't probably understand why I left. He might even hate me but I really just wanted to see Luke. "Arrghhh" I groaned. Why do I want to be with someone who gave me a reason to give up on love? Why would I want to stop him from crying when he's the reason why I cried myself to sleep all these years? What's worse is that I just snogged a boy's face in public but now I don't have anything else inside my head but him?

"Uhh-hi, I'm Luke." And my heart skipped a beat. His cheeks turned bright red. This blonde boy is a stunner. He's so beautiful. I got lost in his eyes. Oh I am so glad we visited Australia this summer! "Well uhm, do you want to go to the beach? It's a beautiful day."

"No!" I snapped out of my dangerous memories. Don't you just hate it when you get flashbacks of things you don't want to remember. Everything we had is over. We're done. Or atleast I think we are.

"Jordy! Are you alright?" Michael asked me dearly. Ashton ran to hug me. "What are you doing out here? It's cold, love." He pulled away. "I'm fine. Where is he?" I asked. Ashton gave Michael 'the look'. "Don't worry about him. Let's go back inside." Michael said. "No. I don't want to. Where is Luke?" I asked again. Michael tried to convince Ashton. "Come on, he needs her." Ashton lets out a deep breath. "Oh, alright. Calum took him to our place. Come, we'll drive you there." he said. "Thank you." I sighed in relief.

We got to their place in half an hour. The lights were on. "Is this like...your house or something?" I asked them. "Yeah. This is where we stay when we're here in London." Michael explained. I nodded. Ashton opened the door for us. I looked around. "It's cozy." I complimented. Calum came rushing down the stairs. "Boys? Are you-- Jordy! Thank God you're here. Make him stop crying. Please." Then he hugged me tight. "Why was he crying anyway?" I asked. "I don't know. All I know is that he was going to ask you to grab some coffee. And when he came back he was all angry and teary-eyed. I tried to ask him why but he didn't tell me anything." Calum explained. 

Wait, so he wanted to talk to me and-- "Shit!" I exclaimed. "What?" Michael asked. "No-nothing." But it really wasn't nothing. I think he saw us making out. But why would he get mad and start crying? Could it be-- No. No. Everything between us is gone. Long gone. 

"Can I talk to him?" I asked Calum. "Course you can. He's upstairs. First room to the left." he pointed the direction. I went up the stairs. There was a penguin on the door. I chuckled. Luke and his obsession with penguins. My breath is becoming heavier and heavier. I'm so terrified.

I knocked on the door twice. No answer. I turned the door knob, it went open. I peeped inside the room. On the bed was a fragile blonde boy all curled up in a ball. He was facing the window. "Luke?" I said. He was startled. He got up quickly. "What are you doing here?" he asked. He was avoiding eye contact. His body was covered in sheets. Before I could say anything, he spoke again. "Go back to the pub. I don't need you here. And I don't want to keep you from Niall." These words striked through me. He did see us. 

I burst into tears. "Luke, why do you even care?" "Well, I'm sorry if I still care about you even after all this time. Even after you left without even saying goodbye!" he shouted. His eyes tried to hold back the tears but they couldn't. "I wish you could've made me understand why you left." his voice cracked. A sudden rage of anger ran through my veins. "Luke, I saw you kiss Ashley! I saw it with my two eyes!" He faced me this time. His eyes widened. "She told me you'd be waiting for me there. I waited but it was Ashley who came and just kissed me then and there. That wasn't my choice! I didn't want that!" "But--" "You know how much I love you, Jordy. I wouldn't even think of doing that to you. I'd rather die than hurt you." he covered his face with his hand. His shirt was soaked in tears. I believe him. His words are true. I know they are.

Tears rolled down my cheeks. It was uncontrollable. I wanted to talk but I couldn't. My lips were shaking. Luke noticed that I was crying hard. He let out a deep breath and lowered his hands from his face. He stared blankly at me. I turned away. I can't look at him. I was too guilty. I left him without saying goodbye. He was my summer love.

"I'm so sorry. I didn't think of it that way. I was so hurt that time to even think about anything so I just left. I'm sorry for leaving you and everything we have behind." He didn't answer. I couldn't stay here or else I'd literally cry my eyes out. I had to leave. As soon as I took a step, Luke stopped me. I was so weak. I didn't have the strength to fight his grip. "I have to--" "Go? And what? Leave me again? Fine." He let me go. He turned his back to me and looked out the window.

My mind stopped. My heart grew cold. I didn't want to go. I just wanted to escape everything. I want to run away from all this. I knew I still have feelings for Luke. I knew it from the very moment I laid my eyes on him today. And now it won't go away.

But, this can't be. I love Niall. Or is it all just in my head? No. My emotions are in chaos right now. My head hurts. My vision's getting all blurry. I feel dizzy. I tried to walk but I lost my balance. The light is slowly leaving my eyes. "Luke--"