Me and my friends knew it was a bad idea but i still wanted it. As much as you wanted all of the others. I think about it now and i could see it. I could see what was coming and yes i ignored it. Because some Bitch wasn't gonna stop me from seeing for myself. And maybe thats why i hugged him that day. Because i wanted my saftey net back to save me from what i knew was coming. I do want to kiss me. And i had the chance. But im too much of a mess right now to destroy someone elses life. Because im never good enough for anyone. This year Ive come to see that ill never be happy for a long time í only get a few moments. I just want someone not to give up on me when loving me gets hard.
