My beloved,
Each of those moments I've spent with you, have been the happiest of days ! I have this dream that I'd leave everything that matters to me and go on an adventure with you. Ever since you came into my life, everything around me seems to be more beautiful that I would ever visualize it to be.
Every single time you tell me with pride and childishness, about the term you'v been brandished with, I can see that you're actually hurt by it. I wasn't always the strong and "good" one (Not so good but yes, I have become better as a human being). I had a very bad name which I thought I was proud of, but when I did 'evolve' I felt so hurt because it was completely my fault and I couldn't do much about it. I wanted to hide my face in shame. I didn't want to face anyone. Was so frightened by the idea of rejection. But this time it was different, all because I started searching for heaven in this hell. It changed me. Started with respecting myself and letting go of my pride. I still have some pride and ego left but that won't stop me from treating everyone the way they should be treated i.e. in an equal manner.
I really have no idea why I just couldn't give up on you. I am what most people call, arrogant. To a limit yes, I wish I could change that but I'm clueless how to. I may be bold, but I am sensitive and it's only you who knows that. It's only you who knows a lot about me.It's my fault, love. I should've opened up earlier.. I'm not perfect, I'm nothing like you wish I'd be. I'm grateful to have you in my life, but I'm in the phase where you could walk out and I wouldn't bat an eye as I've learned to have strength and perseverance without being dependent on others.
I know how it feels when your ego gets hurt, but, love, it is necessary. Wish you could understand. My love for you will always remain the same no matter what.
Awaiting a reply.
-A.N.
