I do prefer solitude but, believe me, I'm never supposed to be left alone with my thoughts. With time, it keeps on getting worse. I pray that someday I maintain a treaty with my inner demon. It's getting stronger and I'm losing my will power to fight. I really don't want to give up, but with the way things are going, I may be forced to give into its demands. I don't want to go back to being the old self. The one that tried to kill herself. The one that turned into a monster every time she was provoked. I don't want to lose my patience and composure just because I have to face new challenges. Why do I have to worry about being defamed, when there's nothing left in me to carry on this duel.
