So far but so close

Chapter 4 (fr)

It's been two weeks since everything happened. Phil's mom and me took turns visiting him. She in the morning and me whenever i felt like it. I rarely went to Phil's mom's house because she usually brought new clothes for me anyways. The nurses and doctors have gotten so used to me being there that they got a hospital bed put in Phil's room for me. The only downside to me being there 24/7 was i looked a stoner. I didnt look well kept and i didnt sound like it either. 

I had to tell youtube what happened. I didnt bring my things with me so i vlogged. Almost as soon as i posted the youtube video, the viewing status got higher and higher. Comments like, "FJDGFDHASWGRWDGQ" or "WTF, WT FLYING FUCK..." Followed behind. They wanted to be posted with updates so i tried my best. And almost each time trying to reassure them that Phil is going to be ok. But i didnt even know if he was going to be ok. 

After a little vlogging and watching Phil in the silence, i decided it was time to eat. Like i did always, i kissed Phil's forehead and left. But as soon as i kissed his forehead this time, he grabbed my hand.

"Dan..." He croaked. I couldn't explain what i felt this time. A rush of happiness, embarrassment, and sadness washed over me.  Carelessly thinking, I pulled away from Phil only to embed my arms around him. He coughed and asked me to watch out but i was too in the moment to let go. Phil was in the medicated comatose state for two weeks to keep him alive. I needed to hear his voice. While embedded around him, i cried.  My loud sobs past Phil's voice and i could only hear myself.  I felt his hand, which was not in my tight grasp, run through my hair. Then he managed to pull his other hand out and grab my face. He pulled it up and looked me straight in the eye. He wasn't tense, he wasn't sad, Phil just had his big goofy smile like he always did painted across his face. I tried to put on a brave face but there was so much uncertainty that i didnt have the will too. Using his thumbs, Phil pressed his thumbs on my cheeks, stained with tears, and wiped them off as best as he could. It was only now i realized what position we've managed to get ourselves in. Phil had sat up and i was sitting on the edge of the bed. 

He took on more look at me, this time looking up and down, and then smiling. Then he pulled my face down and kissed my forehead. 

"Go eat..." He let go of me and i slowly got up. I looked at him seeing how stern he was and did as i was told. 

"Ohh and Dan, nice to see you again mate." I nodded and left the room. Before going to the cafeteria, i went to the nurses desk. 

"Ma'am." I managed out. She took one look at me and frowned. 

"Are you ok sir?" I nodded and tried reassuring her.

"Its just, Phil lester..he's awake." I smiled for a second then dropping my smile. I watched as the nurse widened her eyes and then went for her phone. 

"Doctor? Phil lester is awake!" I smiled again and then walked to a hallway where the elevators were and stopped again. Doing one of two things, i first called Phil's mom. 

"Hello??" I asked when she picked up.

"Dan i'm at work, are you alright?"

"Phil, is awake." I didnt hear a response other then a muffled cry.

"I'm on my way." And then she hung up. Then the second thing being an update for youtube. 

"Hey youtube!' I tried saying cheerfully.

"If you can tell by my red face and eyes then two things might have happened. Phil's not ok or is he???" I smiled widely. 

"Phil lester ladies and Gentlemen, is awake!!" Then smiling again i ended the 45 second video. I posted it while walking to the cafeteria. As i was eating, my phone buzzed with youtube notifications. Them being, "DANN DONT BE JOKING." or "DHAEJ^#U^JTARHJTETHNMYKSSHTJUT" It was beautiful. I think...i'm going to be just fine..

HELOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HERES THE REAL UPDATE FAM c: Now i can procrastinate again xDD -Hannah