So far but so close

Chapter one

Watching Phil struggle with his luggage made my day. He carried his bags in one hand and camera and suitcases in the other. Our corridors weren't huge so he managed to trip over the wheel on his suitcase. He came tumbling down. 

"Ow!" Phil complained. I laughed to myself and came over to him. 

"Let me help you with that." I said coming to him. Phil rubbed his knee, which was first impacted and then carried what i didnt take. I helped him all the way to the front door to our flat, opened the door, and but his suitcase out. 

"I've got the rest Dan. Thanks!" Phil said walking to the door.

"Are you sure? I can make sure you don't trip again." I smiled. 

"Yes Dan i'm fine! Will you be alright, alone?" I nodded. He sighed and grabbed the suitcase handle. 

"I need to go Dan. I'll text you when i'm in the car." I nodded. I closed the door as he headed out. I went towards my room and laid on my bed. Phil was going on a holiday to visit his family. Not for any specific reason this time though. Whenever Phil is gone it always gets quiet. Almost eerie like. No one to watch me as i make a video or read the latest fanfiction some kid decided to make. I do get lonely so i kinda hated when he was gone.  

Sometimes when he is gone, it gives me a chance to think about my feelings. Not toward myself, but towards Phil. I know i exclaimed all the time that i'm not into Phil in that way. But on the inside i have gained a slight crush on him. When it comes to people's emotions, Phils get to me the most. I find myself wanting to know his feelings everyday. Wanting to know if he's sad or happy... I feel like it's my fault if i don't know. My thoughts were interrupted by my phone buzzing in my pocket. It was a message from Phil.

......

'Ayee Mate on my way to my parents. Text you when i get there.'  

I replied.

'Alright. Have fun! Don't die! x-)' I shut my phone off after that and went back to thinking. Would he ever like me if i came out to him? Would it ruin our friendship? Would i loose my internet senpai? I started to imagine possible outcomes to that situation. Him kicking me out of our home and me having to go live with my parents. Or him being completely awkward around me and possibly ignoring me. The thought of it made me cringe. I don't want to loose my best friend...

I remember laying down in my bed. Images flashed before me going black then to color... First my bed. Everything was packed in boxes. My bedding was all white. Then i was carrying out a box Passing Phil. His head was down one arm grabbing his forearm. He wasn't even looking at me.  His mouth was twisted in a upset way. Before i left i paused in front of him. 

"I'm sorry.." And then left. 

.......

I shout up in bed in a cold sweat. I touched my cheek which was warm. Warm tears were falling down that i couldn't control. Its was only a dream it was not real. I must of dozed off while thinking. I grabbed my phone from my pocket and turned it on. It read 3:21 am. 

'Great..' I thought. Don't think i was gonna be able to get back to sleep. Instead, i decided to check all my notifications. Texts from Phil, Few tweets from instagram, youtube, and a call from Phil's mother.

Phil's mom? Says she called around two. She left me a voicemail.

"Dan...I would like you to get to my house as soon as you can...It's Phil..He's been hit by a car." My heart sank. I couldn't express the way i felt rather than i know i needed to go but i couldn't move. I was stuck in place after hearing that. If it wasn't me that was going to ruin our relationship..It was a car. 

Ayoooo c: HANNAH HERE! I feel like this is really bad..or it just doesn't make sense...i dunno. You choose. I cannot promise updating right then and there due to me not getting on a lot..but i shall try. Hopefully you like it. You can follow my on pinterest, (acc should be on my profile) and possibly follow me on here too if you want x3.