You'll Always Be My Girl - YOONGI (SUGA) X READER

Chapter 9: this might be the last time

----SUGA's POV----

I heard what happened to her the hospital called me. I immediately stop whatever i'm doing, gladly i wasnt in any schedule, all the members come along with me and rush to the hospital. I called her mom and tell her what happened. And they head to the hospital too.

"Doc what happen to her?!!" I yelled at the doctor, i'm so worried i cant control my voice, i got there first. "She passed out due to the severe headache caused by an intracranial pressure, but we've given her some drugs and she will be conscious in time. She'll be okay" he tap my shoulder and exit the room. I fall on my knees "hyung!" Jimin shout and help me stand and sit me on the couch. I hold my head while looking down, my heart beat so fast, afraid that she'll leave me today. "AISHH!!!" I stand up and kick the chair, everyone startled, and i leave the room.
I walk to the garden fast crying, cant hold my feeling, i feel so hurt, i'm not ready for her to leave me, i cant live without her, i dont want her to go... I love her so much.....

----JIMIN's POV----
"Hyung!" When i'm about to go after him jin hyung grab my hand "jungkook-a, let him be. He need his own time to think, its hard for him." I look at the door and looking down.

"Y/n-a!!...." I heard her mother's voice from the door, i turn my head and see her there with her father sobbing. "Aigooo.. Uri aegi,, uri ddal..aigoo" her mothers sob filled the room, holding her hand, stroking her thin hair, her cheeks kissing everywhere she could. "Aigoo..saesange...what did i do wrong in my past life you gave me this kind of torture god..giving my only child a cancer? Why dont you just give it to me instead?... If you want to take her, take me instead, take me,.." Her mother keep punching her chest....it hurts me so much seeing this kind of view..i look back as i feel tears on my eyes.. I go out of the room to dearch for yoongi hyung, i walk around the hospital but couldnt find him, as i'm about to get on the lift i saw him walking towards the lift too. "Hyung!" I call him "oh.." "Y/n's parents are here.." He just nod at my statement. I examine his face and i can see that his eyes are puffy, i bet he just cried.

"I dont know how to comfort you hyung, since i dont know how it feels to he in your shoes. I'm sorry" i said looking down. "Aniya, its okay. Theres nothing i can do either". The lift's door is open and we enter it to go back to y/n's room.

----SUGA's POV----
I get back to the room and see y/n's parents beside her holding her hand, her father massaging her legs.

"Oh, yoongi-a wasseo?" Her mom saw me, i nod and smile a bit while bowing. "Ne omonie.." "Where were you?" "I was at the garden, taking some fresh air.." "Yoongi-a..." Her mom approaches me and hug me "i'm sorry..i'm sorry because of my daughter you have to suffer like this..theres nothing i can say beside sorry.. I'm sorry yoongi-a.." I hug her back and shakes my head "no omonie..i love her, i have to stay with her no matter what.." I close my eyes and again, tears fell down on my cheeks.

"JAAAAA!!!!! LET's EATTT EVERYONEE!' why is the atmosphere is like this?!! Y/n will hate it!' Jaaa!! Heree!" Jhope shouted making us look at him shock, he grab y/n's mom and dad by the shoulder and push them over the chair to sit, when did he prepare all this? There are a lot of foods, snacks, drinks, sweets on the table. "Yaaaa.. Hyunh, when did you prepare all this????" Taehyung asked while taking some sweets "you dont have to know!' Jaa omonie, you can eat, you have to take care of your health..be healthy!!! Jaaaa,, say aaaaa~ aboji toooo aaaaangg~" thanks to jhope, the atmosphere is getting better, we can laugh and having fun even only eating and talking. He always do his aegyo and jungkook couldnt stop singing and dancing, v keep dancing with rapmon, and jin you know, eating. I just sit here looking at them with a smile attach on my lips. I look at y/n and shes still asleep. I walk to her and sit beside her bed, stroking her cheeks and kiss her forehead.

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I heard everyone is laughing..i see omma..i see appa..i see yoongi oppa..i see jin..i see rapmon..i see jhope..i see taehyung..i see jimin..i see jungkook...i see everyone..."미안해 다들,, i make things difficult for you guys.." I look at them with a sad smile on my face and tears running down my cheeks. "I shouldnt have been born...i shouldnt have lived at all if sadness is the only thing i can give to you guys..i think i should really go..release all the burden i've given to you...omma appa,, mianhaeyo..everyone miamhaeyoo..yoongi oppa..mianhaeyo..i really dont wanna leave you, buti feel like i keep giving you hard times..i think being gone is the best thing,.you can keep up with you life..forget about me..find your happiness..find someone else..that can make you happy..i love you..." As i'm about to turn i feel someone grab my hand.."y/n-a..where are you going?? Let's join us." Yoongi oppa's happy face.. I miss it..i miss him.."but...i dont..." "Just come!" I smile and follow him...

----SUGA's POV----

I see tears come out from her eyes, i widened my eyes and wipe it gently.. "Y/n-a...." As i call her name she slowly opens her eyes. "Y/n-a...you awake?.. Can you tell..who am i?.." She look at me slowly, it takes more time for her to recognize me but she nods. I think her vision is still blurry.. Everyone else see me and approach us "y/n-a..honey.. Can you tell who am i?" Her father lean his face closer to y/n so she can get a good look, she then nods. Everyone of them take turns and she recognize all of them "oppa.." She look at me "i miss you" tears fall again from her eyes, my eyes gets teary And i hold her gently and kiss her head "yeah..i miss you too.." "I miss you" she them cried. All of us startled at her sudden reaction, i look at her mom with wide eyes, her mom just nods and smile at me, she ask the rest of them to go out from the room and head to the canteen downstairs.

"Shh...i'm right here baby..i'm right here.." I keep stroking her head and kiss her head again and again trying to calm her down. "Oppa i really miss you..what am i supposed to d-..a-ah.." She suddenly grab her head and cringe in pain "ya! Are you okay?! I'll call the doctor!" As i'm about to stand up she grabs my hand "oppa..dont go.." I look at her and cant stand the look she gave to me and just get back and lay beside her on the bed, placing her head om my chest and hold her tight "arasseo. I wont go anywhere..but please..dont cry.. Or you will hurt your head again.." I said stroking her head and kissing her forehead, she snuggles closer to me and nods "okay.. Just dont go anywhere..i want to be with you.." She snuggles her face on my neck and i giggle "yaa..that tickles.." She giggles too and look up at me "oppa..popo.." I peck her lips and she smiles brightly "i love it ❤️" "i know"

I can feel her warm breath on my chest and she plays with my shirt "oppa..stay here tonight..i dont wanna be left alone.." I nod "sure baby..whatever you want.." I kiss her forehead again.

"Omonie, abonim, and guys, i'm gonna stay tonight, y/n wants me to stay here tonight" her father hug me "arasseo, take care of her, we'll go now" he gave my back a tap and i nod, "okay hyung, see you, we'll come tomorrow morning.." Rapmon said and they all left.

I get inside the room again and see her painting her coloring books i gave to her.
"What are you doing?" I approach her "finish this last page.." She said keep sticking her eyes on the book "WOOAHH!! You finish all of them?!!! DAEBAK.." I widened my eyes and take the book from her, see through page after page "woah,, you really did color all of them, she smiles at me and take the book from my hand "LET ME FINISHIT!!" I giggle and nods "arasseoo gongju-nim.." I kiss her tip of her head.

I take the remote and turn on the television. Theres this drama that i like playing, i watch it from the couch while keep checking on y/n every 10 minutes.
She stay still doesnt move and keep coloring her last page. I smile and watch the tv again.

"Oppaaaa~ come here!! I miss youuu" she called for me and i laugh "aigoooo~ whyyy~ arasseoo." I walk to her and sit on her bed beside her. She lift up the book and show me "JJAN! I finish it!' Howw?" "Woooooo~ not badd!" I said she punch my arm "yaaaa~ just say that its the best put of the best" i laugh and nod "yess!!! THIS IS THE BESTT AIGOOO!' Like you!! You're the best" i peck her lips and she blushes and giggle. "I know oppa~" she cling on my arm and lay us down, she place her head on my chest and again she snuggles closer to me. "Oppaa, you know right? That i love you no matter what happen.." I nod "yes i know. I love you too no matter what.." I smile and again i play with her hair and kiss her head.

"Lets sleep oppa,, u must be tired" she smiles looking up at me, i nod. I take a deep breath, closing my eyes and hold her tight close to me like she's the most precious thing on this entire universe.

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After awhile, i look up and see that suga oppa is already asleep, i take a deep breath and peck his lips again, and again, slightly not to wake him up. And again, i kiss his lips gently, slowly, like it is the last time i will kiss this fluffy lips of his.

I slowly move my body not to wake him up, i walk to the table, take a piece of paper and a pen, and start writing...

"Dear..min yoongi oppa........"