Something more♡

Chapter twelve

My mind was lost in thoughts, I didn't know what to do. Confused and infuriated, I drove home with my mind and heart going crazy. Once I arrived home, I went straight to my art room, I didn't even bother to check on Toni; in fact that was probably the last thing I'd have wanted to do. I didn't know how to face Toni nor did I want to.

I threw my purse onto the ground then opened up my art supplies cupboard and grabbed a bunch of random acrylic and oil paints. Even though, I had no idea what I was about to do, I pulled out a large canvas and set it across the ground; ready to throw on some random paints and create something.

Throwing on a bunch of colours at once yet leaving it to look like darkness, I began painting a portrait but nothing realistic, smudges of dark blues and greys over lighter purple and reds.

As I painted, tears flowed out of my eyes, I wasn't necessarily sad but exhausted and tired of everything. My life has slowly gone from somewhat normal to all over the place in the last year or so. I want it all to end, but I don't know how. 

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Many hours later, I found myself still painting even though it was way past sunrise. As my painting was finally close to completion I sat back with my back leaning against the wall, my hands and arms were covered in dark coloured paints. I stared at the painting, I was proud of what I had created yet there was disappointment within it. It was definitely the largest painting I've ever done especially in such a short period of time.

"Wow, that's amazing." Toni smiled, I hadn't even noticed him enter the room.

I was far too upset to talk to him but I answered with a small "thanks."

"Have you been up all night?" He asked as he came and sat next to me, I nodded in response. "Are you okay?" He asked me with a small frown on his face.

"Yes, I'm okay."

"You should get some sleep, you look really tired. Take a day off of work or something." I nodded and began getting up but Toni pulled me back down by grabbing on to my arm. "Do you want to talk? I know something is wrong."

"We will talk about it, just not yet, soon though." I murmured as I stood back up then walked out of the room and up to our bedroom.

I took a quick shower then got into bed and tried to get some sleep, though I knew I would have to struggle to welcome sleep upon me with all these thoughts and ideas flowing around in my mind.

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I woke up a few hours later, it took me ages to get to sleep but once I did it was amazing, at least I didn't have to think about everything whilst I was asleep.

As I got out of bed, my phone began ringing. I picked it up and saw that it was Brendon, I didn't know whether or not I wanted to talk to him but I answered anyway.

"Hey, what's up?" I spoke.

"Hello and nothing really just got up from a major hangover... Anyway I think we need to talk. I can't remember much from last night but I do have a somewhat idea of what I said."

"Urm yes. Well, There isn't really much to be said is there?"

"I think it's time I gave you an explanation.. Meet me at the cafe near the mall, in an hour."

"Okay." I sighed.

"See you then." He added then hung up.