Something more♡

Chapter six

He got into my car after I unlocked the doors. He sat down on the passenger seat and smiled at me. I wanted to smile back but I couldn't.

"What do you want?" I asked hesitantly.

"What do I want? Well I want your forgiveness. I want you to love me again. I want you." Toni responded in a soft tone.

"And why do you think you deserve forgiveness after everything you did? You hurt me not just once but continuously, you were rude, nasty and you hit me too." I cried.

"I'm sorry about that, I really am. I need you, I can't live without you. Please just give me another chance." Toni begged.

"I'm sorry what? You want another chance after everything?" I yelled. "I already gave you multiple chances and you decided to break my trust as-well as my heart every single time."

"I know but please I really need you! I'm nothing without you, you're all I have and you're all I'd ever need." Toni pleaded.

I have strong feelings for him and I want to stay with him although I don't know what these feelings are anymore. I don't even know whether my feelings towards him are real anymore.

"Last chance. If I feel unsafe around you ever again, I'll leave and you will have no say in it. Do you understand?" I said quietly.

"Yes. Oh my gosh thank you. I'll love you forever and keep you safe from everyone including myself, I promise." Toni spoke as he wrapped his hand around my hand sending shivers down my spine.

This was strange, every time Toni and I held hands it sent warmth through me, the soft sensation was always so perfect but today as he held hands with me it was different. The warmth wasn't there. His hand was warm but I felt cold. I felt scared. I was regretting my decision of giving him another chance already. I had already given him many chances, I always thought that he would change but this time I felt as if I'm wrong and he'll never change.

I feel like I'm only forgiving him because I want him to be with me. Or only because I owe him this after what he did the first time we met, he helped me when no one else was there for me.

If he's promising to change then I should give him a chance to prove it to me.

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Once we arrived home I went straight to my art room. I wanted to get my mind off of things and just relax, my anxiety was going crazy.

Without concentrating, I began painting. I threw random colours on to a large canvas. Moody blues taking over the bright pastel colours with black ink carving out some of the large shapes to emphasis the image as well as how I was feeling.

I splatted dark colours all over random areas, the darkness represented my pain at that moment of time.

A few hours had past and I realised I had gone overboard and should stop painting. I stepped back and looked down at the large canvas, there was an open sea with different tones of blue, from natural light blues to overly dark blues. Above that the sky was a lighter tone with small white and black birds going all over the place in different directions. But taking attention away from all the darkness was a muted yellow and orange toned sunset view going down from the dark birds to the dark sea, the reflection was clearly on show with white highlights around. The different layers were very noticeable even through the thick acrylic, the white wax under the colours was hidden with the dark expressive tones.

I frowned at the image, it was nothing like my usual paintings. The paintings I do normally are bright, colourful and usually have a deep meaning behind them. Most of the paintings I have done in the past represent love or peace or are portraits but the image I just painted had pain screaming through the canvas.

I walked out of the room and into the living room, Toni wasn't there, he was probably asleep by now. I grabbed my purse and took out my phone. There were way too many missed calls from Brendon, I forgot to inform him on where I was and why I hadn't come back after all those hours. I felt so annoyed with myself. How could I just keep Brendon worried for so long and not even bother to call or answer my phone.

Despite the fact that it was just after midnight I rang Brendon.

"HELLO?! Andrea, where are you? I've been looking for you like a mad man." Brendon shouted.

"Hey calm down, I'm alive." I laughed. "And erm I met Toni, well he wants another chance."

"Oh. Okay." Brendon said with disappointment in his deep voice.

"Is everything okay?" I asked.

"No. I mean yes. Just make sure you call me if you need anything, don't let that jerk do anything to you. And take care." Brendon hung up.

That was really strange, why did Brendon hang up without waiting for me to answer? I should just ignore it, maybe he was annoyed because I came back home with Toni without informing him. I can never repay Brendon for all the help he's given me. Anyway I just need to concentrate on sorting out my relationship with Toni.

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The next morning I woke up to the sight of Toni stood by my side. May I add he was shirtless.

"Good morning beautiful." Toni smirked.

"Eh, I mean good morning" I said whilst letting out a yawn.

"How are you? I've made coffee for you by the way." Toni said as he passed me a warm mug.

"Thanks, I'm fine." I smiled.

Toni walked to the other side of the bed and sat next to me and watched me whilst I drank my coffee.

Once I put the mug down, Toni placed his arm around my waist and pulled me in to him for a hug, I placed my face into the crook of his neck. I had missed this so much, I missed his strong wood like and vanilla scent, I missed us.

"I missed you and I love you, I hope you've forgiven me. I was going through a lot and I let my anger out on you, I'm sorry." Toni whispered.

"I forgive you as long as you never do that again. If you are going through something just tell me about it please." I responded as I let my hand roam around his naked back.

"I promise that'll never happen again."

Toni moved his face closer to mine and at that point I felt his breath hit my ear. "I see your hand is making it's way down my back, you can take it lower." Toni whispered in his deep, husky voice.

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