Alex's P.O.V~
I curl up into Jack's side getting as confortable as I can. But before I know it Jack is shifting till he's facing me with a serious expression which makes me slightly nervous, if you know me, I hate serious conversations or anything serious. I sit up straight waiting for whatever Jack has to say.
He takes a deep breath and the words that flow out of his mouth, with no joking tone included makes my heart stop right and there. My heart starts to thump faster and faster in my chest so loud Jack could hear it if he tried.
"Alex, I'm going into the Army.." he says looking straight into my eyes with no hesitation. I feel my jaw fall slack and my heart sink. He's kidding right? He has to be, we made plans to get a place together, to start our own little family, to live together freely with nobody around to stop us. We were; we are suppose to grow old together. This can't be true.
"Y-your..your kidding r-ri-right Jack..?" I ask hesitantly expecting him to burst into laughter and say he was only kidding and we'd curl back together on the couch and joke about it and such. And not talk about if ever again and carry on with our lives. But it doesn't come, all I see is sad eyes and his head bobbing in a nod.
I feel tears spring to my eyes and before I know it I'm on my feet in front of Jack with my arms extended in exaggeration.
"You ca-can't do this Jack! You can't just leave me like th-this..we..we made plans to live together, to have our own little family, to grow o-old..li..live with no ca-care in the god damn world! I can't do th-this on my own J-Jack! I can't live wit-without you..I can't Jack.." I strain to keep my voice loud yet fail to the lump in my throat from the tears spilling over my cheeks. Sobs make their way from my stomach and into the silence sounding like a kicked puppy. He can't just abandon me.
"You sa-said that you'd always be the-there for m-m-me..y-your promised me Jack..you promised.." I whisper as Jack stands. He takes my hands into his own looking me straight in the eyes. I resist the urge to look down wanting to know what he has to say.
"Alex, I know I promised you, I know I did. And I know I'm breaking that promise, but this is me wanting to make something out of myself and not just Alex Gaskarth's boyfriend. I want to serve my country..I'm so sorry Alex.." he says with a tear rolling down his own cheek. I look away whiping the wet trails off my face, still sniffiling. This doesn't seem real at all, it feels all like a dream, hell..not even a dream, this is more like a nightmare. The kind where you bolt straight up in your bed sweating and panting.
Calming down a bit I look back up at Jack due to the small height difference between us two. I cannot see Jack, my Jack, the tall lanky, big nosed, funny, courageous, silly Jack going into the army. I mean I know where he's coming from. He wants to be something bigger, he always was that type of person who wanted a label or title, not stuck in the background un-noticed from anybody. He wants to serve his country, and no matter how bad I want to, I can't stop him.
Taking a breath and letting it out I clear all my thoughts and focusing on Jack.
"How long will you be gone.." I ask him my voice shakey. I decide to sit back down and finding a interest in my fingers laying in my lap. I know what you're thinking, "Alex, come on, it'll be okay get over it.." but I can't. My boyfriend, my lover, my othe half is going to be sent all the way to Iraq for god knows how long.
"Uhm.." I hear Jack mumble from my side scratching his head and furrowing his eyebrows, which I always thought was cute when he thinks. "I'm gonna be gone for..for 8 years Lex.." be finishes and my heart drops again for the second time today. 8 years without my tall lanky, big nosed, silly, courageous, funny Jack. 8 years I have to go without hugging him, 8 years without kissing him, and finally, 8 years without hearing his voice everyday. This is going to be the worst 8 years of my life...
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A/N: TWO IN ONE DAY :)..haha well from here on it'll be in Alex's pov and some in Jacks :)..well enjoy!!:)
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FanfictionJack has always been one-minded in such cases, especially this one. Jack, 21 years old has signed up for the army for 6 years with no conciseracion of how his boyfriend Alex Gaskarth or his friends will react. And more importantly, his mother. He on...
