Command Me

Chapter 9

(Not edited)

~ Perrie's Pov ~

Princess Jade spotted out last night with long term girlfriend Leigh-Anne Pinnock.

I read the post twice while standing in the lobby of the Royal hotel, but it was the attached image that I couldn't get out of my head. (picture above) She looks like the kind of woman that would make any other woman irrationally jealous. There had been no effort to hide it. Whoever had snapped this photo had been close enough to capture the full spectrum of what had been going on. I'd seen her before, in other photos that Jesy had shown me, but the worst part was that I knew without a doubt that she was the woman Jade had dismissed as a past mistake on that fateful day at the Graduation. She was obviously someone important because another caption read, "Is the Royal family finally going to tie the knot with the wealth family ."

Jade lied to me about her soon to be fiancé and now I am hurt. I'd spent all day dreaming about being with her, but now I felt hollow, gutted by my foolishness.
"Miss." A porter came up to me and hesitated. "May I help you?"
I'd almost forgotten that I was standing in the lobby of a five-star hotel. I started to shake my head, but then I made a decision, sliding my phone off. "The Presidential Suite."
"You must be here to see Her," he said. "This way, please."
The lift ride to the top floor was excruciatingly slow despite the private car reserved for guests of the suite. The photo had been taken last night at a private function. I wasn't angry at her for not taking me, not when we were trying to keep our relationship quiet, but I was pissed that she held me to different standards than herself. If Jade thought I was going to sit around and wait for her calls while she screwed around with half of London's female population, she had another thing coming.
But what really scared me was that she clearly was dating this girl. It was obvious from the picture and from the story attached, not to mention her reaction to her presence on the day we met. The gossip site pointed out that the two were dating for years. Maybe Jade changed her mind about seeing me. She'd only been back in London a short while after all. She'd kissed me once to avoid her. Was Jade screwing me now to get back at her?
It clawed at me not to know. It wasn't healthy to be this attached already. I knew that, but I also couldn't help it.

I was barely holding it together when the elevator stopped at our floor. Her floor, I corrected myself.
Get it together, Perrie. I focused on channeling my hurt into anger and stepped through the sliding doors with my fists clenched.
Jade was on me before I could react. She lifted me up, hands cupping my ass as her lips crushed into me. I couldn't think. I was intoxicated by her, my body betraying me, anger melting into desire as she slid a hand up to grip my neck. She pressed me against the wall and my legs wrapped more tightly around her waist. I didn't want this moment to end, although I knew it had to.
One last kiss.
I couldn't hold back the tears anymore, and they spilled down. I tasted my sadness on her lips and she gasped, pulling back to stare at me in confusion.
"Perrie." She caught my chin in her hands and tilted my tear-stained eyes to meet hers. "What's wrong?"
I turned my head from hers and pushed against her chest until she set me on my feet.
"What's going on Perrie?" Jade asked in a soft voice.
"This Jade!" I held up my phone, so she could see the article.
"I'm not sure I understand what's happening here." Jade said.
"What's happening is that you're a bitch!" The words exploded from my mouth.
Jade ran a hand through her brown hair and walked over to the bar. "Drink?"
I shook my head. It was intoxicating enough to be around her, I didn't need to further jeopardize my good sense.
"So they are reporting that I was seen with my girlfriend Leigh Anne last night?"
Hearing Jade say her name was like a punch in the gut. It confirmed all my greatest fears. She is dating her, and jade wasn't even going to lie about it. I supposed that should have made me feel better, but it made me feel worse. As though I should have known this was going to happen.
"Weren't you the one that said tabloids report rumors as facts?" She asked. "Because I rather appreciated the truth of that statement. Sit down, Perrie."
I folded my arms over my chest and stared her down. So she was going to use my own words against me. Fine. She could play it that way, but I didn't have to obey her. "I'd prefer to stand."
"Suit yourself." Jade dropped into a leather armchair and sipped her drink thoughtfully.
"So your dating her?"
"It's complicated."Jade said.
"You aren't making me feel any better."
"Are you jealous?" A slow smile carved onto her lips.
I refused to meet her eyes. Yes, I was jealous, and I didn't like it one bit. "What do you mean it's complicated?"
"My family wants me to marry her." Jade's voice caught on the final word of this statement, and she took a long swig of her drink.
"So that's it? She going to be your wife and I'm going to be left heartbroken" tears were uncontrollably falling down my face.
"She was but things have changed," she said.
"What do you mean?"
"We're connected, Perrie. Can't you feel it? At first, I thought it was just sexual." Jade set down her glass and stood to come over to me. "The way your body responds to mine. How it feels when I'm inside you. But it's more than that. I know you feel it."
I did and that was what scared me. Jade had made it clear there were no long-term options for us, and this feeling, this connection was far from casual. "Why even bring it up? You don't want to commitment to me, remember?"
"I remember." Jade's mouth twisted into a frown. "I don't understand it either. I don't even know why I'm explaining myself to you—"
"Because you want exclusivity, remember? You demanded it from me! But apparently not from yourself!"
"Do you think I fucked her last night?" Jade asked, taking a step closer to me. Her proximity raised goose bumps all over my body, and I had to consciously keep myself from closing the small gap between us. I hated myself in that moment. I hated her for making me want her so badly.
"If it walks like a fuck and talks like a fuck," I said. This was definitely a time to use the real term.
"I don't lie, Perrie," Jade said in a quiet voice.
"But you did about Leigh Anne!"
"if you accuse me of lying again, I will take you over my knee."
I gasped, backing a step away from her. Jade threatened to before, but I saw now that she meant it and not playfully.
"You'd like that," she continued, prowling toward me. "I see it in your eyes the hunger."
I held up a hand, shaking my head, forcing my rational side to prevail over my hormones.
Jade's hand shot out and grabbed mine, bringing it to her lips. "I'll never lay a finger on you without your permission, but the sooner you accept the truth, Perrie, the better."
"What truth?" I choked out the words, willing myself to ignore the blaze of longing igniting in me.
"You want to submit to me. You want me to tell you what to do with that sweet little mouth. The way your body responds to mine. It wants to be controlled. Dominated. You want to be dominated. You're so incredibly strong, Perrie." Jade trailed a finger across my belly and my core clenched. "But you need to lose control. You want to."
I shook my head, but her words had struck a cord. I wasn't telling her no. I was telling myself no. "No, I don't."
"You'll be safe with me." Jade caught my shirt in her hands and pulled me roughly to her until our bodies pressed close together. "I'll never take you further than you can handle, but I will take you to the edge. I will give you more pleasure than you ever thought possible."
I swallowed, trying to comprehend these promises and the strange effect they had on me. My rational side began painting a picture. I'd had a bad relationship before and it was clear this one was headed in the same direction. "I'm not like that."
"I don't think you understand what I'm offering you. Release. My only thought is of your pleasure. When you give yourself to me, I take that responsibility seriously, Perrie."
I turned away from the intense gaze of her eyes, trying to clear my head. "What are we talking about Jade? Ropes and safe words?"
"Small steps, Perrie, but yes. A safe word is a necessity. For now I want you to trust me. I want you to trust that I will give you pleasure."
"And you'll punish me too?" I demanded. "Threaten to spank me if I misbehave?"
"Only when you don't trust me," she said coolly even though fire sparked in her eyes. "Without trust, you can't give me control, Perrie, and then we can't have what we both need."
"You mean what you want Jade!" I couldn't believe we were having this conversation.
"Need," she said in a low voice that was anything but soft. "What you need."
"I...don't..." I choked on the words, too astonished to rebuke her.
"Yes, you do." She said the words gently, as though she was explaining to a child why she needed to eat her vegetables. "Let me show you."
I balked at her, but my body reacted to Jade's words with a shiver of dangerous arousal. Shaking my head, I forced myself to reject the suggestion that I wanted this. "I can't. I'm sorry."
Jade took a step back and stared at me. "Someone tried to break you before."
I bit my lip, tears stinging my eyes. And no one would again.
"I'm not like them, Perrie. That's not what I want to do to you."
"You warned me," I cried. "You told me you would hurt me!"
She'd shown me all the warning signs and I'd still come running to her. To her bed. Suddenly it became clear that it wasn't Jade who was sending mixed signals.
"I did," she said in a soft voice. She turned away from me.
"I should go." There was nothing for me here. That much was clear.
"You probably should," She said, "but I wish you wouldn't. Go to bed with me one more time. Let me show you. Let me give you pleasure Perrie."
I thought of how I'd felt when I saw that article earlier today, and I heard my mother's warning echo in my head. I was too confused. Jade had me all mixed up, and spending more time with her, going to bed with her was only going to make that confusion worse. I'd given her the wrong idea about me, about what I wanted. I hadn't walked into a trap. I'd led the predator to my door with breadcrumb promises spilled from my lips. "I can't."
Jade stiffened, but she didn't turn to look at me, instead she bobbed her head curtly, but as I tuned to leave, she said. "You won't."
There was a note of accusation in her voice. She could see right through me. Jade hadn't been lying about that connection. Why then couldn't she see that the intensity of our relationship was terrifying? But she knew that. Jade also knew that I found it exhilarating. She'd counted on that being enough and it almost had been, but I'd seen the darkness in her eyes and it scared me.
It scared me almost as much as it aroused me. That's why I left.

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