Command Me

Chapter 10

(Not Edited)

~Perrie's Pov ~

Jade was flying low under the radar. The only contact she seemed to be making with the outside world was the texts she sent to my mobile. Jade was making it hard to stick to my decision to end our brief relationship before it got out of control.
There was still so much I wished I knew about her, however, I knew my fascination with her wasn't healthy. Jade came with baggage that I couldn't carry. The fame. The darkness. The control issues. It was too much, too fast. Jade consumed me when she was near me and occupied my mind when she wasn't. Ending it was the only option.
So why couldn't I let her go?
But this morning I had bigger things on my mind. At least, I was trying to keep the fact that I was starting my new job at the record label Syco Music today and I must make it my top priority. In actuality, the fact was that I was failing miserably.
"You should block her," Jesy suggested as she made me a cup of tea.
"She has access to SIS," I reminded her. "I'm not sure it will matter if I block her." I didn't add that I'd already tried and couldn't bring myself to do it.
"I don't like seeing you this way. Are you sure this 'girlfriend' of her's is really something to get so miffed over?"
Jesy's heart was in the right place, because I hadn't been able to tell her the truth. That the real reason that I'd walked away from Jade had nothing to do with the photos of her with Leigh Anne Pinnock. How could I explain to her that Jade scared me? She knew I'd attracted the wrong people in the past. She would completely understand my compulsion to run if she knew what Jade wanted, and maybe that's why I couldn't bring myself to do it. Jesy would never look at Jade the same way again. What I couldn't figure it out is why I cared so much. She wanted to dominate me. She claimed only in the bedroom. She claimed it would be safe. But was that a risk I was capable of taking?
"I don't know," I said, not able to lie to her. At least, not entirely. "Maybe I'm just hurt, but I think it's better if we get some distance."
As if on cue, my phone buzzed with an incoming text. I snatched it up before she could see what it said. Jade's texts ranged from reasonable to wildly sexual, although I expected the overly dirty ones came from a night spent drinking too much. She'd managed to keep them respectful for the most part, which made it even harder not to respond.
"Whatever Jade did, she isn't trying to hide that she's thinking about you." Jesy flipped her hair over her shoulder and shot me a meaningful look.
"She's thinking about sex," I corrected her.
"Jade doesn't bother thinking at all, let alone texting you repeatedly."
I turned my attention to my tea, hoping it would steady the agitated beat of my nerves. "I can't worry about this. I start work today."
"And you look fabulous," Jesy said, switching topics on my cue. (Picture of outfit above)

"Do you think this outfit is okay?" I convinced this outfit was work appropriate.
"Stop obsessing." Jesy shook her head. "You look great and They're damn lucky to have you. You don't need that job, Perrie."
"That doesn't mean I can do whatever I want," I argued.
"No, but it does mean you don't have to worry about what they think of you or at least what they think of your clothes."
Was this how it was always going to be? Little things reminding me of Jade. Little things driving me crazy. All the what-if's and might-have-beens chipping away my sanity.
"What is it?" Jesy asked, setting her mug down so quickly that its contents splashed over the rim. She caught my arm and peered at me with concern.
I could only shake my head, forcing a small laugh to lighten the mood. "It's nothing."
"You were thinking about her, weren't you?" There was no accusation in the question. It was soft and welcoming, practically begging for me to confide in her. "I know there's more going on here, Perrie. Bloody hell, if I'd known she was going to have this effect on you, I would never have encouraged you to go out with her."
"Why would you think she has an effect on me? I barely know her." But my words were hollow. There were a lot of things I didn't know about Jade. The trouble was both that I wanted to know them and that I had glimpsed enough to feel bound to her. In fact, I knew it wasn't just a feeling. I was bound to her, but I couldn't explain that to Jesy. I could barely explain it to myself.
"Oh darling." Jesy brushed a stray lock of hair behind my ear and wrapped her arms around me. "Today is not about Jade. You worked really hard to get here."
She was right. I couldn't let Jade ruin this for me. If I really wanted to prove I was independent, that I didn't want her, I had to stand on my own two feet and do it.
"I'm going to kill myself in these heels," I said, ready to talk about anything else.
"Nonsense Pez. Those heels are tame," she reminded me.
I laughed when I considered the sky-high heels she'd convinced me to purchase for nights on the town. Apparently she didn't fear mixing alcohol and footwear as much as I did.
"I need to get going."
"Here." Jesy shoved a bag in my hand. "Lunch."
"Thanks, Mum," I said, pecking her on the cheek.
"No excuses. Take a lunch break. I don't want you to work yourself to death!"
Smiling as I closed the door to the flat behind me, I realized I had someone watching out for me after all.
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My desk consisted of a quite large table in a very spacious room with a hallway that leads to the studio, also with an amazing view of London and I loved it. I had earned that desk and the studio and as a bonus my boss Simon Cowell was nicer than I expected. That was what I couldn't explain to my parents or to Jesy that the sense of pride at having worked for something. I loved them all dearly, but it was something they just couldn't fathom.
"The new microphones and computers have just arrived," My boss Simon explained to me as I followed him through the studio. I was pleased that hardly anyone gave me a second glance. My brief moment of notoriety seemed to be a distant memory to everyone.
"We're about to launch a world wide search the next boy band that I can sign to my label. I've heard you have a friend who has started a band with three of his mates... What was his name again?" Simon asked.
"Um Harry Styles sir ," I choked out.
"They are called One Direction correct? He prompted.
(Just pretend one direction are not famous yet.)
"Yes sir," I said.
"Please set up a meeting with them Perrie and after they sign the contract I want you to start recording with them" he said walking back to his office.
"Will do sir."
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Despite Jesy's good intentions, my lunch left something to be desired, namely in the flavor department. So I grabbed my purse, thinking I might check the cute cafe on the corner. As soon as I stood, I felt eyes on me. The girl outside my office looked away as soon as I turned toward her. Two more people whispered in the corner and didn't bother to hide their gaze. My cheeks flooded with heat. Maybe I'd been wrong about not being recognized. Digging my phone out of my purse to text Jesy, I discovered I had a new email in my personal account. My heart stopped when I saw the subject line.

The Texts Princess Jade Doesn't Want You To See.

Eyes bored into me from every direction, and I willed the floor to open and swallow me alive. This was what I'd been desperate to avoid, attention. I scrolled through the story, fighting the urge to throw up. Bile rose in my throat as I saw the posted messages. They were all there, in all their explicit glory. Not only had someone hacked Jade's phone, they'd tracked the recipient of the messages, me. And to make certain there was no doubt that I was the Perrie Edwards that had the Princess in a frenzy, they'd included a photo they must have snapped this morning when I left for the studio. How hadn't I noticed them there? Had I been that oblivious?
Stuffing my phone back in my pocket, I lifted my head, determined to make a dignified exit. I would get lunch. I would forget this happened and it would all blow over. The first story had, after all, and there weren't going to be any more. It was over between Jade and me. But I hadn't gotten two steps when my confidence faltered and I stumbled, Standing at the door of my office was Jade.

"Your not an easy person to find Miss Edwards."

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