September 20, 2015
journal,
i want to die. it's barely the first day and i already have an essay to turn in two days from now. i already the book i'm supposed to talk about, but that doesn't mean i'm excited about it.
hoseok was surprised this morning when i was the first one to initiate a conversation. after a while i eventually ran out of things to say, but he thanked me for trying to talk more.
since he's a year below me, we had no classes together. that was the only thing i hated about him being younger than me,
i had no one with me. to top it all off, we got told that we'll have to read our essays out loud in class.
i think i might get a cold that day, i might not be able to go to, damn.
but if i don't go it's a grade i won't get. i've never been a man of many words, mom has told i need to be more confident, she says that girls like guys with confidence, they like a man who tell them what they want. there's a bit of a problem though.
i am gay.
-ksj
