Monophobia - SehunxLuhan Sehun's p.o.v

I can't breathe.

Ch.8
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Sehun's P.O.V

In the darkness I close the doors, quietly feeling helpless

The stage that has changed, certainly leaves a regretful reflection

You silently gave me so much but never mentioned it

I plucked up my courage and opened my eyes once again

Time is slowly slipping away bit by bit

Everything I do for you may not be enough

Still I struggle to hold you tight

There's no way anyone will be able to replace, just like our promise.

Luhan. I can't breathe here. I can't breathe without you here please. Please come back. I'm suffocating here...I can't handle everyone trying to act like you or that they think they can help me. No matter what goes on my mind goes back to you and the memories we share. Those memories bring me happiness but at the same time they make me upset. I start to think about all the members and realize how they've been acting and realize it's my fault all this is going on. I look out my window and start to get up. I pull the I.V. of my hand and switch into my normal clothes not this hospital gown. I look around the room to find something I could sneak out with but I don't know how. I see a jacket sitting on the chair near the hospital bed. Its Chanyeol's. I grab it and put it on. I put the hood on and sneak out of the room. I walk pass the nurses and doctors here. I walk straight out the door with no problems. I head towards the café. Towards mine and Luhan's favorite café.

I walk in and order Luhan's favorite drink. An iced Americano. I go over to our favorite spot to sit at it. I look down at the drink and I start to sniffle. Why? Why do you have this effect on me? Why can't I move on? It's been 5 months already. It's not like he cared about me. It's not like he cares about me. We've been through so much why hasn't he tried to contact me since he left. But even though all that's true that's probably why I can't move on because we've been through so much. It's because he cared for me so much right? He didn't want me to be in so much pain that he left me. He didn't want to see me cry. That's why I can't move on because I love him so much.