Clair's POV
When i woke up it was completely dark, i couldnt even see sunlight through the drapes, which meant i must have slept right until sun down. I rolled over. Nutcracker was lying next to me, his back facing me. I couldnt tell if he was asleep or not since he didnt actually breath.
I thought about the girl he had been talking about earlier. I wondered if she missed him, the person who he really was. I wondered if when he returned if she would forgive him for whatever it was that he had done to her. I knew that if she was me, and could see the things he was doing know, what he had become, if all her anger would melt away and she would see him for the man he really was. Just like i was seeing him now, not the human, but not the nutcracker eather. Just the person that he really was.
I rolled back onto my back and starred up at the cieling. It was white with dark wood paneling covering the seems in mixed patterns. I liked this cabin, it felt homy, i just wished i was in my real home, and i really wished Kris was here.
I hated admitting it but i missed him really bad. Even though he had been a huge dick, i felt like there was a huge whole inside me and only he couldnt fill it.
I wanted him back
I wanted to hold him
I wanted him home.
"Nutcracker?" I whispered "Are you awake?"
Nutcracker groaned and rolled over onto his other side so that he was facing me. His head was pretty big so it pretty much made his pillow dissapear.
"You slept through the whole day" He whispered "I was begining to think you would never wake up"
"Did you sleep?" I asked
"For a while" He replied "But i dont really sleep much, people who are made of wood dont need much rest"
"Can i ask you something?" I asked "From a guys perspective?"
"Sure" Nutcracker said
"Do you think Kris is scared?" I asked "Wherever he is?"
Nutcracker was silent for a moment, in the darkness i couldnt see his expression very well, but his eyes were cast down.
"No" He said solemnly "I dont think hes scared"
"Where do you think he is?" I asked "You know this place better then i do"
"I think hes closer then you think" Nutcracker replied "You just havent found him yet"
I shifted in the bed, pulling the blanket up closer to my face.
"We faught so much" I whispered "I hated him so much for abandoning me"
"Im sure he didnt mean to hurt you Clair" Nutcracker said "Guys make mistakes sometimes, i would know"
"But you love her" I said "Its different, Kris doesnt love me. He never did"
"You dont know that!" Nutcracker said, his voice suddenly rising "He may love you and just never knew how to show it"
"Well if he loved me he wouldnt have been so terrible to me" I said bitterly
"Maybe he did love you and just didnt know how to tell you" Nutcracker said
I burried my face into the blanket
"Clair" Nutcracker said "Do you love him?"
I peeked over the blankets, Nutcracker was starring at me with blank expression on his face.
"I dont know" I said "I loved him once, but it was a long time ago. Hes hurt me alot since then"
"Do you think you could love him again?" Nutcracker asked
