Andy Biersack is my brother

Now he knows

"MACY WAKE UP" I woke up to ice cold water being poured on me I jumped out bed

"WHAT THE FUCK!" I yelled I looked up to see the guys laughing

"Morning" Andy continued laughing he handed me a towel I grabbed it

"C'mon get dried off were leaving soon" Jinxx laughed they walked out I dried off and got ready I grabbed a black Asking Alexandria t-shirt my black skinny jeans and my combat boots I did my makeup put my thick black hair in a side braid I grabbed my phone and went downstairs,

we all go in the car and Andy's song We Don't Have To Dance came on

"HEY IT'S MY SONG!" Andy got excited and turned it up I started chuckling see him excited over his own song in the radio we all started Jamming along to it,

we then pulled into the mall's parking lot we got out of the car and went in we went to hot topic and journeys we then went to build a bear Andy made a Koala Bear and put a leather jacket on it while I made a regular bear with a cute little dress on it,

after we were done we went home we carried the bags in Juliet carried hers to the bedroom as did I when I got to my room I went into the bathroom and locked the door I got out my blade and started slicing my wrist Andy had no idea cause it was my secret since high school I always made sure I covered up the scars so nobody knew I then heard a knock my door

"M's are you ok?" Shit it's Andy

"Yeah I'm fine my stomach is just feeling a little funny that's all" I lied

"Well when you feeling better were going out to eat tonight" Andy sounded upset shit does he know what I'm doing?

"Ok" I answered I heard him walk away I put pressure on the cut to stop the bleeding I then taped it up I put some bracelets on so you couldn't see anything,

I walked out of the bathroom and grabbed a jacket I then went downstairs we then left,

we got to the Denny's Parking lot and went in we sat down our waitress got our drink orders and then our food orders soon our food came out and we started eating I was sitting next to Andy and Ashley while Juliet sat on the other side of Andy,

Cc , Jake and Jinxx sat on he other side of the table after dinner we ordered Dessert, after we were done we went home we sat down outside and started a bon fire and roasted marshmallows and made S'mores,

it started getting late and I was getting tired I decided to go to bed

"Night guys" I smiled and went in I went upstairs I put on music and went to bed,

I woke up early in the morning I noticed nobody was up yet I grabbed a jacket and decided to go for a walk, about a half hour went by and I got back home Andy was pacing back and forth he saw me walk in and walked over to me,

"Where have you been?" He sounded angry

"I just went for a walk" I was confused why was he so angry

"Why didn't you answer your phone" he started to sound pissed now

"I didn't know you called" I looked at my phone I had 8 missed calls from him I didn't know my ringer was turned off

"What if you could've gotten hurt Macy?" He didn't seem as angry but he didn't know I already was due to somethings that happened last year while they were on tour,

"It's to late for that' I looked up at him with tears in my eyes he's never gotten this pissed at me let along angry at me

"M's I'm sorry" he had sorrow in his eyes he saw my wrists and my arms

"Macy you've been hurt before haven't you?" He tried to grab my hand  but I ran out the front door I started running down the road

"MACY COME BACK!" I heard Andy yell but I didn't look back we weren't far from LA so I ran downtown my phone rang a few times and I had a few texts from Andy but I didn't want to see nor hear him right now I needed my space to think,

As I was walking down the street I felt someone's hand over my mouth I tried screaming,

"Shut the fuck up" I heard a voice behind me I tried screaming again

"SHUT UP" they spat at me then someone came over and knocked me out I was laying on the ground things were fading I tired kicking but somehow I was to weak

"C'mon grab her legs" I heard someone else say I felt someone grab them

"Macy?!" I heard Andy then everything went black.

Andy's POV
Macy started crying I didn't mean to make her cry

"M's I'm sorry" I noticed something she had scars on her arms and wrists which made me sick what happened?what made her do this?

"Macy you've been hurt before haven't you?" I asked she got big tears in her eyes I went to grab her hand but she ran out the front door

"Shit" I mumbled under my breath I ran out the door after her I saw she was already half way down the road I knew I wouldn't have been able to catch up to her

"MACY COME BACK!" I yelled but she ignored me I went back in I sat down on the couch when I got a text from mom
From Mom
Hey honey how's Macy doing?
I sighed and answered back
To Mom
She just ran out the front door crying her eyes out
I then got a text back immediately
From Mom
What happened?
I sighed again and texted back
To Mom
She went for a walk and I didn't know it I tired calling and texting but she never answered and when she came back I guess I got a little mad at her and yelled at her then I noticed she had scars on her arms and wrists I asked her if she's been hurt before then she ran out the door
I hit send and waited
From Mom
She never told you did she?
What was my mom talking about?
To Mom
About what?
I was totally confused
From Mom
Last year she went go visit her boyfriend one day and found him not breathing she then found a bottle of  pills and a bottle of whiskey next to his body and then a week later her best friend was found murdered in her own house
That's why she ran when I asked I realized she didn't want to go back to those days
To Mom
Thanks for telling me I'm gonna go get her back and apologize
I hit send I grabbed my car keys and went to go look for her just then Ashley came down

"What's going on dude where's Macy? He asked

"I'll explain later I have to go find her" as I was going out the door Ash said he'd come with I tried calling and texting her but she didn't answer fuck what if something happened to her we were driving down the streets of LA  I couldn't find her anywhere

"Macy?!" I yelled out but nothing

"Macy come back home I'm sorry!" I yelled again but nothing I tired calling again but she didn't pick up

"Fuck" I sighed, after a hour of looking and trying to call her phone I worried even more

"Maybe she's back at the house" Ashley said he put his hand on my shoulder

"Maybe lets go back" I sighed and we went back home,
We walked back in but still no sign of Macy anywhere I decided to go out again the guys said they'd help so we got in my car and started down the road again

"Fuck Macy where are you?" I started crying.