Daddy's Dynasty

16.

Maleah Jenner.
Today was the day that I recorded the song with Michael. I am so anxious but I'd rather let it all out than keep it in. I entered the recording studio, to find Michael already in there, playing around with the studio settings.

"I got here a bit early because I wanted to make the instrumental of the track. Here listen." He said.

He seemed to play a continuous loop of piano cords with a few beats added in. It sounded good and I was ready to record the song.

"Is the order, me, you, then both of us?" I asked him.

"Yeah, you can record first." He said

I brought out my sheet and waited for the track to play. As soon as I heard it, I began to sing the words that I had put so much effort into to write.

Feeling used
But I'm
Still missing you
And I can't
See the end of this
Just wanna feel your kiss
Against my lips
And now all this time
Is passing by
But I still can't seem to tell you why
It hurts me every time I see you
Realize how much I need you

I hate you I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to, but I can't put
Nobody else above you
I hate you I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her

I stopped singing and I shakily inhaled.

"Your turn." I said through the booth, hoping to lighten the mood, which it didn't.

He entered the booth and peeled off his jacket. He put on the head phones and adjusted the microphone to the level of his mouth. He nodded at me signifying that he was ready to go.

I played the beat of the track four bars before his starting time, just to give him time to get in sync with the beat.

I miss you when I can't sleep
Or right after coffee
Or right when I can't eat
I miss you in my front seat
Still got sand in my sweaters
From nights we don't remember
Do you miss me like I miss you?
Fucked around and got attached to you
Friends can break your heart too, and
I'm always tired but never of you
If I pulled a you on you, you wouldn't like that shit
I put this real out, but you wouldn't bite that shit
I type a text but then I never mind that shit
I got these feelings but you never mind that shit
Oh oh, keep it on the low
You're still in love with me but your friends don't know
If you wanted me you would just say so
And if I were you, I would never let me go
I don't mean no harm
I just miss you on my arm
Wedding bells were just alarms
Caution tape around my heart
You ever wonder what we coulda been?
You said you wouldn't and you fucking did
Lie to me, lie with me, get your fucking fix
Now all my drinks and all my feelings are all fucking mixed
Always missing people that I shouldn't be missing
Sometimes you gotta burn some bridges just to create some distance
I know that I control my thoughts, and I should stop reminiscing
But I learned from my dad that it's good to have feelings
When love and trust are gone
I guess this is moving on
Everyone I do right does me wrong
So every lonely night, I sing this song

His lyrics were a smack in the face from reality. He does have feelings for me, but he doesn't know how to express it. Most girls would be relieved but this make life more difficult.