Okay... Depression. I know it's a hard subject but I'm going to try and explain something to people that think it's "cute" or they romanize it.
Don't.
Because people that have a serious, mental issue aren't "adorable" and "a fixer upper" you're just an asshole for thinking that.
They don't feel "kinda sad" or "pretend". They are completely and utterly numb, they can't feel anything. Maybe that's why they stay inside, in a dark room watch shows And they constantly eat. Maybe that's why some of them cut, to feel something.
But along with not feeling anything, you begin to doubt yourself. You begin to think you're not worth anything or maybe you have a boyfriend or girlfriend and you lay awake at night constantly torturing yourselves with "Do I really love them?"
We don't always feel numb, we don't dress in all black and we certainly all don't listen to black veil brides. That pretty girl, that has an amazing life, lots of friends and a hot boyfriend? She's depressed.
That boy that constantly makes jokes about everything and has a smile on his face? He's depressed.
Were not always sad too, we can be happy. But until we're alone, or we feel alone... That's when we start feeling the endless sea of blackness.
So no, I'm not "emo" and I don't want to just cheer up. I want help.
-Bailey
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Late night thoughts
PoetryHere are some thoughts I have late at night. Some are inspirational, some are poetic and some are straight up mind boggling, pick and choose which you need at the moment. (Ps:I write these at 2:00 am, there are major spelling errors)
