saving him (under editing)

Confessions

Antonio's Point Of View

I was hunched over the browned hair guy, i kept throwing punches as he tried to block them.i heard big Al call my name and i stopped, i looked up at him and he nodded his head for me to come over to him. I stood up and walked over to him grabbing my jacket before i reached him. He looked at him with a straight face "Zach told me to tell you that her lungs collapsed in surgery and they are trying to fix it" my face dropped he looked at me worried and said "tony you okay?" i didn't answer, i ran up the steps and hopped back into the truck. I felt tears threaten to fall but i wouldn't let them, as i stopped at a red light i looked directly into the bright shade of red and shut my eyes tightly. Whispering to myself "she will be okay" i opened my eyes and waited for the light to turn green. Once it did i took off towards the hospital i hopped out of the truck and ran into the hospital. I ran toward where i left the boys and saw them all with tears on their face including zach. My heart stopped as i saw their expressions, i walked up to zach and said "what happened? Is she okay?"

he looked up at me "we're not sure yet she's still in surgery"

I nodded and sat next to him, i couldn't look at anyone so i looked at the floor.i got up and walked around the corner to the vending machine. There were barely any people in the hospitle, it was around 7am. I looked into the machine but not really paying attention to the items on the inside but just thinking about taylor, this whole day she has been all over my mind and i know the real reason but i'm not sure if i'm ready to admit it to myself. I sighed and zach walked up to me" dude"

I looked at him "i fucked up"

He nodded "yeah"

"What dylan said almost came true, taylor could be dead right now and i would be out with some nurse whose name i don't even know or give two fucks about that what the fuck"

"You do fucked up things when you're upset, i'm not saying it was right but i understand you"

In a low voice "she could be dead.."

"But she's not, and right now she needs us because she isn't strong enough right now, do you understand?"

I looked up at him. He sighed "tony you care about the girl"

i snapped out of my daze " i just think she's been through alot"

"Ummhmm sure what ever, you get mad when dylan calls her his girlfriend"

"I DO NOT!"

"Then why so defensive? You only get defensive when you're guilty"

I looked away from him, he stepped closer to me and put his hand on my shoulder "tony i know you, you don't have to play these games bro" i let out a breath he continued "this isn't a way to go about it, i know that you don't wanna hurt her anymore and you think your doing her a favor by staying away but she cares about you and pulling away is going to hurt her." I looked at him and squinted my eyes,"why do you always have to be right?"

he laughed "because someone needs to tell you when you're wrong."

I laughed a little "you think she's out yet?"

"I'm not sure but we should get back."

I nodded and we both walked back to the waiting room and the boys were all talking to a doctor i rushed over to them and said "what's going on?"

Dylan looked at me and rolled his eyes while max said "taylor's out of surgery."

I looked to the doctor "is she okay? Can we see her yet?"

The doctor looked at me and his eyes widened "ohh umm Mr.Russo I didn't know you were here."

"Yeah, so can we see her?is she okay."

His face dropped "i'm sorry Mr.Russo..."

I could feel the emotions rising inside of me " what's wrong with her?"

"Nothing i just didn't know that you affiliated with...her"

I squinted "what do you mean 'her'?"

"Ohh ohh nothing, she is still asleep but if you would like i could take you to her room"

"Yeah" we all followed the doctor as he tried to make small talk. Once we reached taylor's room i walked right in and looked at her, she had a tube down her throat and this machine with a bag type thing that inflated and deflated. My eyes watered at the sight of her but i quickly blinked it away remembering the boys were here. I turned to them and saw zach leaning on the doorframe with a sad expression on his face, and Dylan and Max were crying silently as they stood on either side of her. Dylan looked up at me "why are you here?"

I stepped towards him "do you know who you're talking to dylan?" he didn't respond i gave him a scolding look before turning back to taylor. I sat in the chair that was next to her bed while keeping my eyes on her. Someone else entered the room but i couldn't take my eyes off of taylor. Dylan said "so doc how is she, like she will live right?" i looked to the doctor waiting for the answer. He looked at her chart "well her lungs collapsed during surgery which is extremely serious and we did manage to get her on the machine that will keep her body breathing for her until her body is strong enough to do it for her. So right now she is just resting from the medication she is on from after the surgery but i am not sure when she will wake up and be able to breath on her own." everyone was silent until i said "can i stay with her?" everyone looked in my direction but i only looked at the doctor waiting for his response. He nodded "if that is what you would like Mr.Russo." i nodded and looked back at taylor. The doctor left and dylan said "why do you get to stay tony?" i looked at him to see if he was testing me again but it seemed like a honest question. I sighed looking at him "i just need to be here." he nodded and zach said "well okay guys how about we go home tell Alex the update, get some sleep, and we can come to see her tomorrow" max and dylan nodded. They walked up to taylor and kissed her cheek before walking out with zach. I sat in the same position for about an hour after they left just looking at taylor laying in the bed. I finally got up and looked around for some covers and and extra pillow so i could try and get some sleep. I made a little bed on the couch and walked over to taylor and kissed her forehead and whispered goodnight. I then turned out the lights and laid down in my little makeshift bed just listening to taylor's breathing machine inflate and deflate. I then fell asleep listening to the sound.