Sidelines

F I V E

I closed the door and sighed like what girls do in movies after a romantic scene with a guy.

I saw the lamp on, my mom's sillouhette was there with her back facing me. Oh gosh, my parents are already here and I'm breaking curfew. I'm so dead. What they don't know won't hurt them. For all I know, they might think I'm already asleep.

I tip toed across the room, trying my very best not to make a sound.

“Not so fast, young lady.” I heard the calm voice of my mother.

I walked sluggishly towards her.

I kissed her cheek as a sign of respect and sat on the chair in front of her.

“Mom, I can explain.”

“Explain nothing dear.” she said while staring ever so intently at me.

Oh my gosh, what does she know? What have I gotten myself into?

“I am aware of what you did in Maximillian Stoll's class.” she said.

My eyes widened. “Mom I can explain that-”

“We told you to never get detention Moira. You have to have a clean record and follow the rules.” she preached.

“But mom. You have to listen to-” I was cut off again.

“And now you come here late. Way past your curfew- do you know what time it is?” I shook my head. “I don't know either, let me check.”

She looked at her silver, diamond- studded Rolex which dad gave her on Valentine's Day.

“It's almost 10 darling. Your curfew is around 7 o'clock. Where have you been and who were you with?”

I decided to lie.

“I was with Clarisse and Marguerite mom.” my face dropped.

Riss and Go. Riss told me to meet her a 7/11. I ditched her. I am such a bad friend. I ditched all of them. I can't believe I ditched my very own best friends for a boy- which is very unlikely. I forgot all about them because I kept thinking of ways to torture the Library guy, and also of my anxiety of being in a deserted place without any means of transportation to make my way home.

“Don't lie to me. I called your friends and they told me you didn't show up at 7/11 where you should've been. Now answer my question, where? Who? And why?” she said calmly.

Her calmness is killing me right now.

“Okay fine. But let's start with me explaining why the heck I got stuck in fugging detention.” I said and I told her everything that happened but except for the lake and the date part, I don't want her to go ballistic on the fact that I was alone with a guy in the middle of the night.

When I was finished, she looked at me and shook her head slowly.

“Do you know how disappointed your dad will be if he knew what you've done?”

I nodded my head. He'll ground me and let me read a thosand books, then he'll never let me go near Leo again. Wait, did mom say if he knew? Yes! I am saved!

“You never told him?” I gaped at my strict and disciplined birth giver.

“No."

“Why mom?”

“Because I'm proud of you honey.” she beamed at me.

Why would she be proud? I thought she was against these kind of things. I looked at her questioningly.

“Are you feigning?” I asked.

“Why would you say that dear?”

I don't know, maybe it's because you're like an officeworker with a pencil stuck up your- never mind.

“You've always been so hard on me mom- but dad is even harder.” I slowly spoke.

“I know, and I have a reason why.”

“Why are you proud mom?”

She smiled softly at me and hugged me. “All these years, you weren't the typical high school girl. You didn't fit in with the rest of the students. You kept to yourself, and you stayed at home. I thought I have a nerd for a daughter- unable to enjoy the wonders of youth and adolescence. But after the stunt you pulled today- the whole detention and night escapades, I thought otherwise. I am so proud of you honey for being a normal girl for once.”

I was speechless. And thoughtless.

“Did you enjoy the normalcy?”

I don't know what to say, nor what to do.

To be safe, I nodded my head.

***

The next day, when I went to school, I was giddy and excited. The giddiness and the excitement were caused by the possibility of seeing and talking to Leo.

After what happened last night, it confirmed I was indeed still having a little crush on that blonde. I wore the skinniest black jeans and the girliest shirt I have- which was a graphic tee with the words ‘FLAWLESS, woke up like this’. I never wore it because I sure as hell ain't flawless. Yeah yeah, it's just a shirt, but I have principles okay? I put a little foundation and eyeliner.

I can't believe I'm doing all these for a guy who probably wouldn't give me a second glance today. I'm keeping my fingers crossed tht he'd notice me and might even talk to me.

I almost-strutted through the hallway vacated  with students with different races, personalities, and flaws. Some were sitting on the floor while some were leaning on lockers. Sheesh, for a very prestigious private school with an expensive tuition fee, there sure are a lot of people here.

I wove my way through the crowd which was blocking my locker. I motioned a guy who was leaning on my locker to leave, and he did so without even sparing me another glance.

I opened my locker and stuffed my things inside it and looked at the long mirror attached to the door of my locker. I examined my reflection. I didn't look like I was a monster in a horror movie, I looked like a girl with a quest to experience normalcy- I looked ugly and there's no way Leo is going to see me like this.

I put on lipgloss and eyeliner. I'm certain I didn't look like myself but it's all for the sake of fitting in. I'm ready to find Leo and tell him I had such a great time last night, I couldn't sleep, and that I would like to do those  kind of things with him someday. I almost squealed with just by thinking about him. I can't believe I was so fast to change from boyish punk, to preppy chick. I know that what I'm doing is gonna be worth it.

I saw on the corner of my mirror, a boy holding the waist of a cheerleader in her cheerleading outfit of green, red, and white. The boy was smiling at her. I recognized that the boy had blonde hair. I turned my head and saw, just a few lockers away from me- Leo with his hands on a whorish cheerleader who is obviously head over heels for him. I realized that I recognize the girl- it was Deb.

My heart fell.

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Hey hey lovelies! I am back once again for another note.

What do you think about Leo? And woah, Debbine makes an appearance. Whoooo

Actually, I fell in love with The Selection series by Keira Cass. And I felt so inspired, I want to make Leo be like Prince Maxon although kinder and less dissembling but more experienced in girls. So for those who read the series, I want you to know that Leo will be LIKE Maxon, not EXACTLY Maxon.

And Debinne will be like Celeste.

Please do vote.

AND comment what you think mon ami.

Au revoir.