Sidelines

S I X

I looked at the way Deb was smiling her sweet yet devious smile while stroking Leo's cheek.

Leo was saying something to her while holding her skinny, barbie waist. I knew, then and there, that I am nothing against the stunning, popular, and seductive Debinne Gartener. Her lustrous, long, wavy, light brown hair is far more stunning than my dull, straight, brunette hair. My unappealing blue eyes are nothing compared to Deb's light brown eyes. My body, lacking curves, is far from her curvy and inviting ones. Plus, no one can wear the cheerleading uniform better than Debbine Gartener. Compared to her, I'm like a cockroach against a beautiful butterfly.

When they say real beauty is in the inside, I'm sure they only say that to make people feel better. But boys don't care if you're kind, smart, or rich, as long as you are physically attractive or I might use the commonly used word- sexy.

And I am nowhere near sexy. I am not even pretty, or interesting, or attractive enough to catch a boy's attention.

What's wrong with me? How could I be stupid enough to believe that the date last night meant something to Leo. Leo can date tons of girls if he'd let himself. Care to answer why he dated me? The blunt and ugly Moira Lowery?

Maybe I pressured him into declaring last night was a date.

Maybe he just lied. Maybe to him, it wasn't a date, he just said it was a date to make me feel better. Or maybe, it wasn't a date to him and he just tested by naivity. 

Or maybe it was a date but he regretted it and decided to leave you alone and find an even better girl to date. Which happens to be your enemy- Debinne Gartener.

I wanted to slap Leo across his godly face for making me hope and assume.

Oh, did I say godly? I totally take that back. An ugly personality doesn't deserve such a face.

It's still my fault though. My fault, because I fell for his looks without thinking about the consequences of falling for a guy like him- arrogant and conceited. But last night, he showed nothing but modesty and chivalry.

But what he did today wasn't really gentlemanly, wasn't it?

Moi, how about you ignore him, forget him, and pretend last night didn't happen.

I ignored the tightness of my chest and walked sluggishly towards the comfort room. I went inside and splashed water on my makeup stained face.

I can't belive I tried so hard to make him notice me. I can't believe I wore the type of clothing I don't usually wear. I can't believe I put these itchy cosmetics on my face just to make myself look attractive, even though I know pretty well that nothing will ever make me look less ugly.

I looked at the mirror and saw black liquid running down my face. I wasn't crying, it was my eyeliner reacting to water. I didn't care if I looked like a punk rock person. I wiped my face with a napkin, and went out of the bathroom and disappearing through the crowd of students.

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My classes were filled with students giving me weird looks. I tried my very best to ignore their judgmental glares. I also managed to keep my day Leo and Library guy free.

Whenever Leo would make a move to sit on the seat next to mine, I would then immediately move to another seat. No way am I falling for his charm again.

I went inside the canteen, dodging the glares they give me.

What’s wrong with them anyway? Why the heck are they looking at me like I just killed their beloved dog that poops on their carpet and making them happy by just licking on their faces.

I cover my face with my long brown and kind of black wavy hair. I was lining for my turn to get the food from Ms. Squid, the silent cafeteria woman. Constantly groaning whenever someone would insert in front of me or anyone, they’re making the line longer and more unbearable. My grumbling stomach earned me stares from the people near me. When it was finally my turn, I hurriedly took my food and skipped joyfully towards the table occupied by Riss and Go.

The both of them were grinning like Cheshire cats. “You look good moi, I like those jeans.” Go complimented, and I gave her a small smile. She knows I’m not used to compliments.

I sat down beside Riss and in front of Go. I frowned, “I’m really sorry for ditching you guys. I am such a bad friend. It won’t happen again, I swear I’ll make it up to you.” I said sincerely.

I wish I didn’t ditch them for that Leo guy. I was consumed by his charm and my stupidity. I must admit, last night was kinda fun, despite all the rules I broke.

“You should’ve said you were ditching us for Saunder, we won’t mind.” Riss said with a grin.
My eyes must’ve turned into little baby Jupiters ‘coz Riss and Go were giggling.

I opened my mouth, but no sound came out.
“Care to tell us about your little escapade with the school heartthrob?” Go said with a sly grin on her face.

How did they know? I never told them. Nobody knew, and I think Leo would be too ashamed too tell everyone. I mean, duh. Leo is a model, a celebrity, what would people say when they'd know he dated an ugly introvert like me?

No way am I saying the n-word.

“It was nothing, really.” I said with a straight face.

They didn’t seem satisfied with what I said.

  “Come on, Moi. Tell us about your date.” Riss tried to coax me into telling them everything.

“It wasn’t a date.” I said through gritted teeth. I forced myself not to roll my eyes at this.

Last night, I would’ve been thrilled to tell them all about my ‘date’. But after what I saw this morning, no way am I telling them, I’d probably look stupid. They'd pity me even more.

“How did you even find out I was with him?” I asked.

Riss grinned and handed me her phone.

Leo Saunder sighted with ‘mystery girl’ I read the headline of the article. I saw a picture of the both of us holding hands while walking towards Leo's car.

My eyes widened as I read the article. My heart was beating fast. But it eventually slowed down after I read the part where they concluded they didn't know who Leo was with. I sighed in relief.

I gave Riss her phone back, and shifted on my seat uncomfortably with a sheepish smile.

“Now tell us, was it a date or not?” Go said with a malicious grin.

I fiddled with the rubber band on my right wrist. I bit my lower lip.

“It was a date.” I heard a deep voice.

I perfectly know who owns that voice. I turned  my head in a 79 degree angle to the left, and there. I saw him smiling.

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Hey guys!!

I love cliff hangers so much, don't you? Hahahahaha lol.

Anyways, I've been debating with myself if I should update or not, but in the end, I decided to update!!!

Okay, I don't have much to say.

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