Adam

origin

Here I am, drowning in the depression that's caused by not having you here with me right now.

You know sometimes I wish we haven't met at all. That way I won't be this hurt. My heart won't have its deep wounds. I won't suffer the pain.

Oh, who am I kidding? Every pain is worth every second I spent with you. And I would gladly suffer more if that means I'll have more time with you.

I remember this time. You were so captivating that night when I first saw you.

I wasn't even supposed to be sneaking on that uptown party. But then I saw you in the balcony. Such a beautiful girl, I thought but wondered why you were alone. At first, I was afraid to approach you thinking that you might reject me because I'm just a commoner or that you don't want company. But it was worth a shot. I still remember our first conversation.

"Hey."

"It's a shame to see an uptown girl be in such an awful mess, huh? Expecting to see a princess?"

"I'm not the one to judge. I just want to introduce myself. I'm Adam."

"What are you doing here? You're a commoner."

"I sneaked. Wanted to know what an uptown party looks like."

"Pretty cool, huh? I wish I could do that too."

"What's pretty cool?"

"To trespass on parties. To be free and do whatever the hell you want. Heck, I can't even hang out with my friends without bodyguards following me everywhere."

"..."

"Yeah, and here you think I live my life to the fullest."

"But why do you live like that?"

"Dad's an overprotective jerk who manipulates every second of my life."

"I'm guessing he's the reason you're out here right now."

"He's forcing me to marry a douche! I can't take it anymore!"

"Come with me, then."

"..."

"I will take you to the other side."

It was actually surprising when you did come with me. I was a stranger to you, even worse, a commoner. And we just met.

Remembering that makes me slightly happier. And now I remember how we spent that night.

We went to this arcade which you suggested because you haven't been in one before. We played basketball and you won over me. And you kept teasing me because I don't know how to shoot. But I did that on purpose just to see you smile and hear you laugh. We tried more games and you kept jumping like a kid when you win. It was fun seeing you all giggly and just plain happy. You said it was your best night ever.

And we did it again the next night, going to some place you haven't been before, doing something you haven't done before. It was all fun. You said you love the feeling of being free. You hoped this would last forever. And so did I.

Then suddenly on this one night, you invited me to dance. I didn't accept because I didn't know how. Unlike you, you are an elegant dancer. Every move you make is so peaceful and graceful. You're like the waves of the ocean, calm and flowing beautifully. While me, I dance like a robot. Nevertheless, you pulled me to the dance floor anyway.

When we started dancing, it's like we're fit for each other. We were in sync. I've never danced before but with you, it felt like I've been dancing for ages.

You bring the best out of me. You bring out the side I never thought I have. I don't know how but I loved it. We both loved it.

And we really hoped this would last forever.

Then on that night, I realized I want to spend my eternity with you. I realized that I love you.

Now I don't regret meeting you, spending time with you, playing in the arcade with you, dancing with you, loving you with all that I am.

You are the best thing that's ever happened to me.

But now, we can't have those nights. We can't dance anymore or play in the arcade anymore. It's all gone. And I'd do everything to have them back.