In Trouble [hiatus]

Chapter 20 // I wanted nothing more than to kiss her.

S C A R L E T T

I screwed up, really really really badly.

I slapped Izek.

I shouted at Izek.

I confessed my feelings to Izek.

I stormed out of the room.

I'm mad at him when I shouldn't be.

Now I just completely messed up.

Congratulations, Scarlett Barbara Anderson. Now you've officially fuxked up everything.

What the hell I just did, I cannot even put it into words. I didn't realize I was that stupid, yeah I swallowed sand when I was 3, I caught a bee in my hand and which in turn stung me, I tried rollerskating and hula-hooping at the same time and especially when I sucked at both. But I've never been that stupid and embarrassed myself that I've ever want to bury myself in a hole that'll be 135 feet under the earth and never ever come out.

But now, I did. Hoo-fuxcking-ray.

I drive straight home after my 'talk' with Izek. I'm too embarrassed to face him again, I have to apologize before it's too late. But my stubbornness is too much for even me too handle, so obviously I hear a little a voice in my head.

He lied to you, whatever hell happens he should be the one apologizing...not you. But he admitted the truth finally.

STILL HE LIED TO YOU! Bu-but.....

I have to apologize..but not so soon. Yes, I am stubborn and my ego and pride is as big as the entire universe, maybe even bigger.

But is it ever too early for an apology?

Yes.

No.

Yes.

No.

Yes fuxking yes.

I need my mom. I have to talk to her, I need to. Very urgently.

"Mo-mom?" I call out as soon I reach home, I'm sure there's no one home except her because dad will be at work at this time and Nate and Danielle are back at the hospital.

"Why are you late?" I see her walking towards me, an expression of confusion and worry soon becoming evident on her face by her crinkled forehead, raised eyebrows and twisted lips. "Where is Nate and Dani?"

A frown makes its way onto my lips, I grab her hand and lead her to our living room and take a seat on the couch, she followed me quietly. "I need your help..."

And I vent out.

Everything that I've been feeling since Izek's past was revealed to me and my confession, everything. I tell her the whole story, how I screamed at him but I didn't tell her what he told me though. I just told her that he told me about something in his past which he hid and lied to me about. It's his life and definitely not my secret to share. All the while, she listens carefully, not interrupting my ramble, not even once...she just listened. That's one of the reasons I love my mother, she understands. She is a great listener and as weird as it sounds she could work as a bartender in a bar because they all are good listeners or something right? Okay now that's just me being plain weird, please ignore it. Or maybe she could be a good councilo-OKAY I'LL JUST SHUT UP.