The First Biggest Mistake

Chapter 1: (HIM)

Hi my names kelila, I'm 14 years old. I'm writing this true story. He was my EVERYTHING regardless of anything in the whole world.My first love, my first real boyfriend. He was at first so amazing when i first met him. Nothing could change the way I had felt about him. He made me feel special I felt whole something I think I never felt before. I used to be shy of him because of how cute I thought he was and how fantastic a personality he had, It was so nice to be around him I felt so enlightened, he made me feel energetic, and his vibe used to be well with mine.He was the best ideal boyfriend any girl could have.At first he was sweet, nice, gental, protective, and so nuturuing somthing I never got from a man before.Thats what made me love him because he was the first to make me feel that way, well the first male to make me feel so happy.The best thing that I loved about this boy was that he used to give me the feeling that he was going to stay in my life thick and thin, regardless of what ever happend even threw the tough times. I loved everything about this boy man. His face his amazing body, his voice, his smile The way he looked into my eyes and made the time stop around us and always made it seem it was just me and him there and no one else, he always made it feel like it was me and him against the world when he did that, he just took my breath away.But I was so confused how a boy like him could love a girl like me I always wondered what i really mean to him. Why we went off and on, why we took each other back threw everything we went threw with the drama. Sometimes being around this boy I'd get shy sometimes, you know ,my top lip would quiver, yeah weird right?But he would ask me what's wrong and it was because I could never tell him how I feel and be my true self around him and that's when i knew we weren't ment to be. But we don't talk anymore,I can't believe it, some people can't believe it because we used to be so good together. And then everything changed. I can't lie I miss him, and when you talk someone everyday and it suddenly just stops it's like the whole world changes, the mood changes, it's like the whole atmosphere I was in is slowly starts to disappear, my heart starts to ache my feelings become hurt. I mentally get ill and can't function correctly and I start to get depressed and sad and confused on how i'm going to go on with life. And it is the worst feeling in the world.