The First Biggest Mistake

Chapter 8: Maturing

But heres were I say less and mature as being a young lady and learning to move on with life. Letting things go. Not letting anyone get to me in any negative way. Being happy. And getting to know who I am as a person. NEVER depending on any man for any reason, not even for my own happiness. And never letting another man break my heart like this boy did cause if it happened again I dont know what id do. But what comes around goes around. But I wish him nothing but the best cause he seems upset, and I want him happy like I was at a point in my life, cause thats all I ever wanted. And one of the most biggest mistakes I felt I made was beliving a boy like him could love a girl like me, all I wanted was to be loved back and treated the way I need to be treated, like a delicate flower, cause im sensitive. I feel I warshiped the ground this boy walked on because I felt I couldnt live without him, but I can and I am, and Its a lesson learned. And good people make mistakes in life but that doesnt mean they have to pay for them, because everyone someday will fix them. Cause mistakes are just ways of doing better once you realize not to make them again. But my biggest mistake was never being honest with myself and realizing my gut feeling the first time me and him broke up it wasnt going to work out. And my gut feeling was right as always. That sometimes not everyone is ment to be together at the moment they think they should. And never to rush into anything. Lesson learned.