The First Biggest Mistake

Chapter 5:Drama

Not everything was roses and flowers when we dated, we didnt always full fill each others needs to make each other happy like its supose to be in a relationship, Drama started. And we were off and on for 9 months. After every problem shit changed significantly, we saw differerent sides to eachother we didnt like. I didnt like how he didnt listen to me, or lied, or talked to other females when we were together, yeah im not crazy I find shit out. People tell me things, and so quick to say how hes single and wanted all these girls to talk to just to forget I existed he did twice, and I talked to this one boy but it wasnt anything serious at all I mean I liked him a little but told him I wanst leaving my now (ex boyfriend) for him but ill get into that another chapter. Anyways when your in a relationship heres somethings you dont do, you don't get your friends involved in your relationship bullshit it messes everything up, thats were I fucked up, you also don't post your business on social media so that everyone could know your business, you dont post subs or anything seeming like about to your formor significant other. It causes more drama. One thing I never wanted was for him to feel like hes walking on egg shells, or for him to feel like hes obligated to stay in my life for anytype of situation im going threw. He did, I know he did. And sooner or latter he couldnt take it anymore and snaped told me to leave him the f*** alone and hes done. I dont know why exactly he would go off on me like that. The fact he had no respect for me to just say it nicer then he did hurt me cause I remember him telling me he would never hurt me but I guess those were undelibrate lies. But that very day I cried my eyes out. I cried so much and so bad I got directed to a schools social worker who speaks to me 2 days out the week now to see how im doing because I was so in love with him, and thought I couldnt function. But I dont really cry often I was holding those tears in and all the pain but he had to be the one to set me off to pour my whole heart out to ground and on to someones shoulders just for a text saying leave you the f*** alone your done.Hes sad for that. And hes a bully for that as well as talking bad about me on social media having me a laughing stalk. For someone that was bullied just by who they are as a person to feel you have the right to bring someome who loves you down is really low and sad of him cause id never ever, not even now do something like that to him. And that hurts me, for someone I love more then anything in the world to act so spitful and treat me like they hate me, I wanted to kill myself so many times because he made me feel I had no purpose in life because it felt like all love was lost like I was nothing.