The twins

part 8

i was shaking in my bed my eyes following harry , he was walking from one side to the other looking at me every now and then, i was nevrous, i was crying, and i was scared, as scared as never in my life, i was starting to like a guy who had a gun 

-will you let me explain without interrupting?- he finally talked stopping his moves and looking directly at me, i looked down, not resisting eye contact and gulped, will i ? i nodded- i need you to say it Cheryl; please, i need to know you are not scared from me 

-but i am scared-i whispered, the pain that was on his eyes almost made me regret my words until i looked at the gun that was still on his hand, he noticed were my eyes had land on and he slowly walked to my bed and put the gun there and walked backwards

-i dont have a gun now, it is closer to you, i swear im not bad - he said raising his hands 

-if you are not bad why everyone thinks you are? why everyone says horrible things about you? why my friends tell me to keep my distance ? why you wont tell me about your job? and why the heel you have a gun?- i asked not even breathing in between sentences he looked guilty 

-please hear me out ? all the story?- i nodded and he sighed he sat at the floor obviously noticing i wasnt comfortable with him sitting at my bed right now. 

-all those stories started two years ago, i was working as any other day, and before you ask, i work on a orphanage, i know you wont beleive me, but i do, i am the security guard. That day i was walking arounf the halls as any other day, i am there from 6 am to 6 pm every single day of the week,including weekends, and i like it, i really do, you have not idea how happy it makes me to see when a kid is addopted and can have a better future, a better one that mine, my parents died when i was little Cheryl, Edward and I were left on the street when we were only six, we had to learn to defend ourselves, to survive, two weeks later an old women found us and took us to the orphanage, to see if someone wanted to addopt us, but none wanted, because we were two, we werent going to let anyone ripped us apart, so we stayed there, til we were 15 , the guys that were supoussed to take care of us started to abuse us, not just punch u sbut also sexually, we werent happy, edward was more depressed than ever, thats why i understand how you feel about your mum being abused by your father, i had to watch the same, only it was my brother and sometimes myself- i gulped - thats when we deceided we were going to leave the place, and so we did, we started working on whatever we could find, from cleaning bathrooms at schools to walk dogs, we needed money, one day i was walking in the street, it was two years ago, edward was working at the music store, he was far more intelligent thanme and had a better work, i still cleaned windows and bathrooms, but that day while i walked i saw a guy that was punching a little kid saying he was never going to be a brother to him, he was adoppted, and the prick was punching him, the kid was cryin, half of his face was bruised and i couldnt stand watchng so i went and punched the guy with all my strenght, i broke his nose, he then started trying to fight me, but i punched hi once and other again, the little kid ran off and i was left alone with the ass of guy , until, well, you know, i didnt noticed i could punch so hard and i ...- he sighed closing his eyes- i killed him. 

i didnt knew what to say, he had killed

he was a murder 

and i was in the same rom as him, alone 

- i went to prision for a year because i was a kid and it was "self-defense" so they let me out, but then everyone started saying i was dangerous, while that edward had went to school and was having great notes, but the day i went out , we were walking towards our apartement that he had bought, when a guy with a gun was about to shot a women because she hadnt gave him her purse, we both ran to the man and knocked him , the women thanked us for saving her but the rest of the people walking around there was scared because what we had done, so rumors were spread that we were terrible bad gys, and that everyone should be scared of us, the women resulted to work on the orphanage and asked us if we wanted to be the guards of security because there had been some kiddnapping of kids on the place, i accepted knowing how terrible the situation was, edward refuse saying he was against violence, with the time, i started winning money and we finally bought our beds, and like that little by little we started to make our appartment, but the rumors never left. thats why people is scared of me, because i cant stand people bullying someone so i just punch any type of bad person, thats why everyone is so afraid of me, because yeah i killed a guy, because he was hurting a kid and it made me feel sick to watch , thats why i have a gun, because my job i s protect 150 kids from being kiddnapped, and maybe you dont beleive it, but there had been times when people do try to enter to the orphanga and hurt the kids, and i dont care if everyone hates me, i dont care if i go to jail, but i will kill anyone who dares to hurt any of those kids who had suffered enough on their lifes. 

he the started sobbing, like really crying, his hand on her head , i slowly moved from my spot and sat next to him, my hand slightly touching his lap, he looked up in a swift move 

-the only thing that could hurt me, is you to be scared of me Cheryl, if you dont want to see me again, i dont know what i am going to do- he cried - you are the onlyone who has ever made me feel happy, i had never been attracted t any girl, i had neve made love with someone, it always was some old women rapping me against my will when i was at that place, Cheryl i had never felt in love before

it was enough for me, maybe i was still scared that he had such power that he could kill someone, i was not going to be happy with the idea of him killing someone and i had to explain him that i was never going to visit him jail, but i now understood him, he want a bad person, just a person with really bad experiences, i wanted to know why his parents died, i wanted to know so many thing more, but i could just think one one thing : he was in love with me 

no thinking it twice i put both my hands on his face making his red eyes to look at mine

-here me out harry, im not happy with the idea of you having a gun, i dont approve you being so agresive and i hope you dont kill anyone ever, but while you are saying the truth let me tell you, that i might not be the best person of the world, but if you need me, i'll be here, because i had never felt in love with anyone, until you.

i took out his tears with my thumb and his worried and confused eyes were still looking at me 

-you are not a bad guy harry, you just have to learn no to explode- i whisered in his ear before putting my lips on his, he was surprised in a beggining but soon answered my kiss, our lips playing with each other my hands travelling to his curls and his to my waist, and even when i knew how dangerous harry was, i liked him that way, because if he wasnt so agressive, rude, and explosive, he wouldnt be harry, he woul... he would be... he would be edward!!

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another short chapter, i know, not the best, i know, but i tried my best is not easy talking about so many feeling of one character and i hope i could express what harry felt all his childhood, there will be some more drama in next chapters and i hope you understand if i dont update too fast because school is driving me crazy and i have 5 more stories (that you should check out *hint hint*) but i'll try to not leave you on cliffhnagers too long 

thanks for all your comments and votes, and thanks for reading i have a load of new readers on this story which makes me really happy 

love you all!!!

ps= chapter dedicated to a new reader who was very persistent on wanting me to upload ;) hahah hope you like it @Deasiabeard

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9/09/13