Identity

Chapter Five:

Cassandra rolled out of bed and rubbed her eyes. After a long night of staring up at the ceiling while dealing with the mess in her mind Cassandra was able to doze off. It was time to wake up for another day of school and Cassandra wasn't ready. She wanted to crawl back under her sheets and get close her eyes. She wanted to sleep away her day and problem. Her future wouldn't allow that though and so Cassandra went to get ready for school.

Brushing her hair was the worst part of the morning. It seemed as if her hair grew into a monster while Cassandra slept and it's goal was to bring maxim pain to her skull. Cassandra ripped the hairbrush through her hair. She grimaced in pain as she did so. It took ten minutes to a half an hour a day to brush out her knotted locks. She has to brush her hair three times today to keep it from getting this bad but Cassandra never remember to do so. She wished she took better care of her hair every time she brushed it in the morning.

Cassandra slipped on a pair of clothes that she found off her floor. She needed to do laundry again. She slipped on her shoes and grabbed her backpack.

Cassandra left without breakfast. She never ate breakfast.

Cassandra walked to school. The cold air nibbled at her skin causing her to pick up pace toward Everett's house. The two lived rather close to one another. Everett's home was just a few blocks ahead which was actually on the way to the school they go to. Cassandra was practically running toward Everett's house after the few moments she was outside. When she reached his house she opened his door and bolted inside.

"Cas?" Everett peaked around the corner that led to his kitchen. He was holding a bowl of cereal in his hands. "You're here earlier than usual."

"My hair wasn't as monstrous this morning. It only took ten minutes to brush it instead of the usual twenty." Cassandra tightened her hair tie that kept her hair pulled back into it's ponytail. She wandered over to Everett who was dressed in a simple black shirt and matching black jeans. He had on a pair of heelys. He took a bite of his cereal and raised his eyebrows at Cassandra.

"Why are you staring at me?" He asked when he finished chewing.

"You are such a nerd. Heelys aren't even in style anymore."

"I know." Everett took a step and then wheeled his way over to the sink to set his almost empty bowl in the sink. "I don't really care though. I like them."

"I know you do." Cassandra shook her head and followed Everett to the sink. She stood behind him and wrapped her arms around his waist. She placed her head on his back. "That's one of the reasons I love you so."

"I love you too." Everett sighed and tried to spin around. "Cas, you need to let go of me so we can go to school."

"Oh, yeah, haha sorry." Cassandra let go of her boyfriend and took a step back.

"No need to be sorry." Everett smiled and left the kitchen to grab his backpack.

"Yeah, but I am anyway."

I lay in the middle of the meadow looking up at the light blue sky above me. Clouds slowly making their way across in various shapes and sizes. I love nature. I love the warm breeze and the bright sky. Flowers to touch with my hands and grass between my toes. Nature was my happy place.

Zara told me to lay here after Clair woke up to calm me down. I can't believe that I woke her up. It's all my fault. If I wasn't so screwed up in my head none of this would have happened.

"You are a failure, Cas." I whispered to myself. "You sucks, you are the worst, and I hate you." I place my arm over my eyes and let out a loud sigh. "You are pretty awful. You breathe all this air that could have been used by someone else and you eat all this food that could have been eaten by someone else. You need to stop that. Stop eating, Cassandra."