I'm sorry.
For not being good enough
For being too much
For not being what you needed,
What you wanted
For being such a mess
For having a problem I can't fix
For crying all the time,
Even over the littlest things
For being too nervous
For being too clingy
For not being able to fix you,
Or even myself
For all the times I thought maybe..
Maybe this ones the one
Because you weren't
You're far from perfect,
That's for sure
But to me..
Oh to me you were more than perfect
The 8th wonder if even
But you turned out just like the rest
You promised me the world and more
And I believed you
I was the love of your life
And you were mine
But one of us was lying
I thought you would make me forget my past
But you just became part of it
You were THE one
And now you're just another one
You said only death would make you leave me
And for a second I really thought you meant it
But i guess i was just blind with love
Because you didn't die
But you still left
They say to keep hope
To be optimistic
but,
Even the most optimistic,
Have a breaking point too
One can only be aggressively optimistic for so long
I tried so so hard
But I've reached the point
I no longer have hope
I'm no longer optimistic
I'm no longer happy..
I cry even more now,
If that's even possible
We dont talk anymore
But I still hope that one day,
Your name will pop up
And you'll tell me you love me
That you miss me
That you need me
But if course you won't
Because why would you
Who would want someone like me
A wreck
A fuck up
A suicidal ill minded freak
I wouldn't necessarily hurt myself
You've done enough of that already
But if a car came speeding towards me
I probably wouldn't move
Part of me wants to die,
Because without you I feel like nothing
But also I want to live long,
So I can watch the man you become
And watch in painful joy..
When you meet the REAL love of your life
And make her the happiest woman alive
Because you're just that amazing
And I hope whoever you do fall in true love with,
Will love you all the same
Just like I did..
And will always continue to do
I love you with all my heart
All my body
And all my soul
And for that I apologize
Because to you,
My love is just a burden
I'm sorry..
