Help Me

Chapter 2

Stef's pov

The last couple of days have been hard. I think Lena's depressed. I don't want to say anything about it because I might hurt her. I walked into our house and I looked around. I heard a crash. I pulled my gun out from the side pocket. "Who's there?" I whispered shouted. I walked around the corner, I didn't have my gun out fully, just holding it.

"It's just me!" Lena shouted

"Damn you scared me." I put the gun back in the slot. I walked into the kitchen.

"I just dropped this, sorry." She said. She started to pick up the shard glass off the floor.

"No no stop, you'll cut yourself. I got it." I grabbed a dustpan and cleaned up the mess.

"Sorry." She apologized.

"It's fine love, I'm just glad someone wasn't breaking into our house."

I smiled at her. She smiled back. That's probably the first smile I've seen this whole week.

"Do you want to do something tonight?" I asked her.

"What about the kids?" She asked.

"Brandon and Callie are old enough to watch them right?" I said

"Yeah, what were you thinking?"

"Maybe we could walk around at the beach unless you want to do something else."

"No that's perfect. The beach is great. It always seems to calm me."

Just on cue the kids all walked through the door.

"Hey guys come in here." I told all of them.

"What's up mom?" Mariana asked.

"Mama and I are gonna head out tonight. Callie, Brandon, can you guys hold down the fort?" I asked.

"Yeah we can." Brandon said

I looked over at Callie for a response.

"Yeah we can do it moms." She said.
Her eyes got big and was about to say something again.

"Sor-" she got cut of by Mariana

"She called you guys moms!" Mariana said. Callie rolled her eyes at her. I went over to her. I kissed the top of her head.

"We're gonna keep fighting, okay?" I whispered in her ear.

"I love you." I said

"I love you too." She responded.

I walked back over to Lena and held her hand.

"We are gonna get going. Call us if anything happens okay?"

"Yep." They all responded.

"Well that was easy." I said.

"Maybe too easy." She said.

We both broke out into laughs. That's the first time she's laughed since what happened.

Lena's pov

I'm kinda in a good mood. Well better than I have been this week. My scars have been healing and they're  almost all healed. Stef just asked if I wanted to go on a walk at the beach with her. Of course I said yes, I love the beach and her. Callie just called us moms. I started to tear up a bit. Stef came over and held my hand and as we walked upstairs she said,
"Well that was easy."

"Maybe too easy." I replied

We both laughed and that was the first time this week I laughed. We got up to our bedroom and changed into something a bit more comfortable. I put on some shorts and a t-shirt with a sweatshirt on top. Stef was wearing shorts with a t-shirt.

"You ready?" She asked me.

"Yeah." I said.

We started to walk out the front door. We got into our car and she drove us to the beach. When we got there we both got out of the car. We walked hand in hand on the beach. I stopped walking and turned to face her.

"I love you, I just hate what I've put you through. Here, sit." I said

We both sat down in the sand. I have a lot of explaining to do.

"I know you must be worried about me because the past few days I haven't been acting right." I took a breath and looked at her.

"You're a beautiful woman Stef and you deserve so much better than me." I stopped talking for a second.

"I know you don't want to believe this, but it's true." I rolled up my left sleeve showing all cuts. A tear rolled down my cheek. My voice started cracking.

"I have depression, which I probably should have told you but I was scared too. My mood changes easily, so that's why I can go from happy to sad so quickly."

I still held on to both of her hands. My hands trembling. Almost wanting to let go.

"I sometimes feel like I don't belong here or that I'm not good enough, but these past couple days I've been doing good." I glance over at her.

"I understand if you want a divorce." I muttered to myself.

Stef's pov

She cuts. So I was right. And she's depressed. God Lena what made you do this. Why?

"What?" I asked.

"I understand if you want a divorce." She says slightly sobbing.

"Love, I would never want to divorce you. Yes I think that what you did is wrong, but I'm gonna help you okay? I love you." I grabbed onto her hands.

"I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry." She said.

I pulled her into a hug.

"I love you too. Even if sometimes I don't act like it." She said. The last part a bit quieter.

After that we got in the car and I drove home. We got home around 11 pm so we went right to bed. I held her close and she kept muttering to herself "I love you."
I kissed her head.

"I love you too."

That's the end of chapter 2! I know it's been a while since I updated, but here it is. Chapter 3 should be up in a few days.