Broken Hearted, Broken Dreams [COMPLETED]

Chapter 1: Life Sucks

(A/N: so guys I re-did some of this, a small name change and such. You can reread it or just try to catch on in the other chapters. Hope you like!)

Chapter 1:
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"Erin get down here this instant! If you're late I'll have to tell your father again!" My mom yells down the stairs into my bedroom which is in the basement.
"Gosh I'm coming!" I reply grudgingly. I look one more time in the mirror and see my image, black skinny jeans, a white Black Veil Brides muscle tee, and a black sweatshirt tied around my waist. My shoulder length blonde hair is tied over to the side is a small braid and my side bangs that were dyed black were swept off to the side. I quickly slide my feet into my black converse and make my way up the creaky stairs to see my mother rushing off to do something. I grab a bowl off the counter and walk over to the table where my one of my older brothers is sitting, staring at me. He's tall and wearing a dark blue tee shirt with writing on it, he has sand colored shorts on and his plain hiking shoes. His brown hair is long and grown out to his shoulders. I get some cereal and milk and he quickly looks away when I look at him, I sigh.
"What?" I say in an annoyed voice.
"Nothing. Just you know how mom doesn't like when you wear that much black." I roll my eyes and shove the cereal box in his face.
"Well she can deal with! And so can you Logan." I reply rudely, I pick up my bowl and walk back to my room while eating the rest of my breakfast. I pack my bag for school and sling it across my shoulder, I jog back up the stairs and put my bowl in the sink. I grab an apple for lunch and yell to my mom on the couch,
"I'm leaving!"
"That's not how you will speak to me! Say good bye Erin!" She yells back.
"Bye." I say while I climb out the front door. I walk down the steps of our porch and down the sidewalk towards my school. I sigh and sniffle to keep my tears away. My mom has been struggling again after my dad and her split up and takes everything out on me because I'm the 'imperfect' child. I don't see much of my dad anymore, actually I don't see him at all. Our mom took custody over us in court and I wished I was old enough to say no because it's made my life a living heck. Logan (my brother) graduated from high school 2 years ago but won't get his butt off the couch and go to college. While my other brother who is the oldest went through 3 years of college as a music major and joined a band and is the drummer, his name is Christian. So that's my family. I turn a corner and see my high school. In all its glory it's an OK school...for everyone who fits in. I walk up and enter through the main door, going along with the flow of students. I break off to my locker which is covered in paper with such inspirational quotes such as 'go die', 'your a freak', and finally 'emo fag'. I tear the paper away and stuff it in my bag, I open my locker but a jock comes by and slams the door closed in front of my face as he yells,
"Kill yourself weirdo!" And laughs and he walks off, I retaliate back and say,
"Oh fudge off Justin! Pick on someone your own fricken size!" I reopen my locker and pickup my test books, slamming it closed and slowly start walking off to class with my head down. By the end of the day I'm worn out and decide to go to the bathroom, I lock myself in a stall and close my eyes tight. A small sob escapes my lips when I hear the bathroom door creaking open. I peer through the crack in the stall and see it's the 'queen bees' Yay. That was sarcasm by the way.
"I wish that freak girl Erin would just kill herself already, it's not like anyone actually cares about her." I bite my lip to stop from letting sobs come from my mouth.
"I hear her brother hasn't gotten out of the house since graduating." I hear laughs and finally I can't take it anymore. I unlatch the door and step out, everyone looks at me and I say,
"Stop. Stop attacking my brother, you don't know my family and you just make up stupid and crappy lies. Leave me alone and my brother. Cause I'm done with you people." I turn to leave and hear laughter at my back, just before I leave I hear,
"Where is she going? Off to run away like a baby? Or to slit her wrists? Well you should!" The laughing continues and I burst out the door. I stand in the deserted hallway for a minute and then I pull out my phone. I dial a number and then silently pray they pick up. I wait and wait and finally the voice mail pops up.
"Hey it's Ash! I'm not here to take a call so I might be in a show, or just not around. Leave a message and I'll try and get back to you. Thanks!"
"Um hi Ash, it's me Erin. I'm sorry to bother you while your on your tour but I need to talk. Everything's getting worse and I don't know what to do I-I need you right now. Uh anyway bye." I say through muffled sobs. I get up and walk to my locker, just sitting there on the cold hard floor for a minute while tears streamed down my pale face. I kept hoping he would call back, somebody to stop me from what I was about to do. When my phone started to buzz I grabbed it immediately in my shaking hands. I looked at it and I see Ash's number, I quickly answer it and say shakily,
"Hey."
"Hey, Erin this is Christian. Is everything ok?"
"Oh, hi Christian. Um is Asher free?"
"Not right now, where are you? It sounds loud." Just then the class I was supposed to be in ended and students along with noise flooded through the hallway.
"Uh I'm at school. Um, I'm sorry for bothering you. Just tell Ash I called and I need to talk."
"Erin wait! Are you ok-" I hung up hurriedly and raced off to my next class. I enter the room and see everyone staring at me, I walk to my seat and say,
"None of you losers have anything better to look at?"
"No we don't, because we know you called your stupid loser boyfriend for 'help'." I clenched my fists and ran out of the room with tears streaming down my face. I heard teachers calling my names and students calling insults but I didn't care, I was so done. I run all the way to the front door and burst out of that school. I cry as I run, run far away from that horrible place. I ran all the way to my house and quietly opened the back door, running to the basement. I went into the bathroom that was connected to my room and locked the door, sinking to the floor in a pile of tears. After a few minutes I hear footsteps and them pounding on the bathroom door.
"Go away!" I yell, not caring who it was. I sat on the edge of the bathtub with my head in my hands and my whole body shuddering. I get up and look at my body, I walked to the toilet and was about to stick my fingers down my throat but there was suddenly a loud crack and I look up to see Asher standing in the doorway, he sees me and drops to the ground next to me and I sob into his shoulder.
"It's okay Erin, I'm here." He says while rubbing my back while I poured my eyes out.