Broken Hearted, Broken Dreams [COMPLETED]

Chapter 10: We're All Messed Up Creatures

Chapter 10:
Crimson's POV
A single tear rolled down my face as the scene in front of me unfolded. Erin was sprawled on the ground, screaming and crying till her voice was hoarse. Ash had his hands around her as she tried to kick away, her arms were covered in blood and I saw razors scattered around the bathroom floor. I feel a hand on my shoulder and turn to see Christian with his eyes glazed over in sadness, he pushed himself into the bathroom and dropped to his knees beside Ash. He put his arms around both Ash and Erin protectively and dropped his head to Ash's shoulder, his whole body shaking as he let out uncontrollable sobs. Eventually Christian pulled Ash from his sister and picked her limp body up. She screamed one more time as she flailed around and more sobs escaped her lips.
"It's okay Erin, shhh. It's okay my baby girl, please, I love you Erin." He said through chokes and sobs. He carried her out to the couch and Ash miserably followed and so did the rest of the band with Logan. I put my arm around Logan and hugged him reassuringly, he was biting his lip and wiped his cheeks dry. Christian and Ash grabbed bandages and wrapped Erin's arms from her elbow to her wrist. Gosh I've never seen her this way, I mean I knew she was depressed but I never thought she was suicidal or would ever cut. I bit my lip as I looked and saw Erin's limp body, she let Ash and her older brother touch her arms but her face looked miserable. Her makeup was smeared as even more silent tears rolled down her cheeks. Christian knelt down and placed his hand on her head, softly stroking her hair. Eventually she spoke and her voice was hoarse from screaming and shouting,
"I-I'm s-s-so so-rr-y." She said, looking at Christian's eyes.
"It's alright, your gonna be ok sissy. It's all going to be alright. Just please promise me one thing, you'll stop harming your self." She shook her head, new tears springing from her eyes as Christian spoke.
"I can't do that." She whispered,
"I just don't want to see you get hurt or worse." He said back quietly. Just then Logan started walking away from me and I whispered very quietly,
"Lo! Where are you going?"
"I need some air." He replied barely above a mumble and headed out the buses doors. I looked around and realized that Erin had enough people by her side, Logan needed someone now. I slowly walked out the bus and saw Logan standing by the bus and rubbing his arm nervously. I walked up to him and engulfed him in a giant loving hug.
"Your okay Lo." I whispered as he started to cry again.
"It hurts me to see her like this because I know something no one but I and her know." He said shakily.
"What is it?" I coaxed and he shook his head, biting his lip.

Logan's POV:
Crim was trying to get me to tell her and I just but my lip and shook my head. I couldn't tell her, couldn't tell anybody. The band would kill me for what I did and Erin would kill me for telling.
"Your going to get mad." I said in a voice barely above a whisper, looking into her deep brown eyes. Her light reddish brown hair was blowing into her face by the wind and her leather jacket blew open, revealing a black T-shirt. She had a bandana tucked in her back pocket and she took it out, giving it to me to wipe my cheeks.
"It's ok, I won't get horribly mad." She said sadly and I stared straight into her eyes, took a deep breath and slowly explained,
"When we were younger, I-I was walking to school with E-Erin and a-a-a boy walked up and he was wearing a bunch of makeup, black nails and long black hair." I shuddered but continued, "he said hi to Erin and I got defensive. I-I-I thought he was going to hurt her so I punched him, beat him until his face and body was bloody. She yelled for me to stop, she pulled me away and I turned on her. I t-t-took... I..." I couldn't finish, I slumped to the ground and Crim followed, rubbing my back soothingly.
"It's okay Logan, it's okay. Tell me please." I sobbed and continued reluctantly,
"I took a razor from my pocket that I had u-used earlier to cut, I shoved her against a tree and jabbed the blade into her shoulder blade. I wrote one word...freak!" I yelled and lost it, I screamed and yelled. I thrashed around under Crims grip. She held on tightly and stroked my arm. I took a deep breath and felt dreadful, now everyone was going to kill me.

Ash's POV
I wiped my nose as I saw Christian put Erin on the couch and talked to her. We had bandaged her arms where she had cut and I could already see blood soaking through. I saw Logan run from the bus and Crim chased after him, after a few minutes I went outside to see what they were doing. I was in the doorway of the bus and I over heard the conversation. Logan was shaking and telling a story of a day I never forgot. I heard him describe a boy and I remember, I was running up to Erin and she was walking with him, I was going to tell her my parents were moving again and I was going to miss her. Logan had gotten defensive and beat the crap out of me. I heard what he said next but never saw it with my own eyes. Crim looked over her shoulder when he was done talking and saw me, she gulped and slowly coaxed Logan up. They walked past me and got onto the bus, Logan's eyes widened when he saw me and I could tell he knew I had heard the conversation and knew I remembered that day so long ago. I patted his shoulder and his eyes filled with fear,
"I'm not mad at you Logan, it's the past. Throw away that old book with burned pages and move on." I whispered in his ear as I follow them up and close the door behind them. As we enter every eye in the room was upon us. Crim sat Logan down on the opposite couch that his sister was on and went to whisper something in Christians ear, he looked at her as a confused expression crossed his face. I rubbed Logan's back as Christian said,
"Erin, can you sit up for me sweetie?" He asks carefully, she nods and I see him gently pull the neck of her shirt down and there, plain as day was a scar. I heard Logan whimper in fear and I whispered in his ear,
"C'mon, it's okay." Christian put his had on her back and traced the letters to spell the word Freak. I hear him whisper to Crim,
"Who did this?" His eyes were full of shock and she just lifted her eyes to where Logan was sitting with my hand on his back. Christian looked over and I could feel Logan tensing beneath my touch, mumbling one thing over and over,
"They are gonna kill me. They are gonna kill me." Only he wasn't looking at Christian, he was looking at Erin who had anger written in her eyes.