The next week I don't check Tiger's post. I'm so depressed that I stop following him. For nights I lay on my bed crying hopelessly about what the media has posted. I go up to Hamiya and tell her that "I don't like Tiger anymore as a crush...He's just my fave actor." Everyone seems shocked. They look at me with mixed feelings that don't understand the reason I chose this path. I lie to myself and to the world. I lie in all those Whatsapp statuses that indicate Tahniat+Tiger is all over.
Then one day I am just listening to songs on Saavn, when his song comes across. I remember that even though I have cleared everything on Tiger I haven't adjusted my playlist. I pull off my headphones and throw them across the room. Just then the phone beeps, alerting me about a rainfall that was heading our way. I grab the keys and lock the basement door so no water can go there. I rush back to my room. If any of you have seen Tiger's film: Baaghi's trailer then you know what I am talking about. In it, Tiger says that "If you and I have a connection then the next time it rains we will meet by ourselves" (He says this in hindi/Urdu).
I bite my lip and crawl under the bed. I hide there for some minutes, until my lonesome is disturbed. Sahir texts me, "Wanna go biking?"
I don't hesitate before answering, "InshaAllah!" That's a vague response but I don't feel like typing a straightforward yes.
I slither out from underneath. I wear my black converse, along with a loose, black shirt. My cap hangs on my dresser, so I grab it, considering the weather. I don't want the cap to be as lonely as me. The rain has calmed down, so I'm kinda glad. It's tough to pull out my bicycle from the basement. But I manage. Just like I manage my life.
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Worlds Apart
Fiksi PenggemarTeenage girls lose themselves over fangirling...something that gets them into a world that isn't so pretty. A world where that person is your whole world, but to them you are nothing. It causes heartbreak, depression, getting overexcited, checking e...
