Letters to Anne

Anne

*possible trigger warning*

ugly

fat

worthless

weirdo

whore

one cut, two cuts, three cuts.

and many more.

but yet i was still not satisfied.

so i grabbed the bottle of pills on my counter and a glass of water.

i was crying and writing letters to everyone.

i wrote a note to levi, my brother, my mom and dad, and my ex-bestfriend.

i put the pills in my mouth with a shaky hand and drank my water.

i cleaned my arm and walked over to my bed and later down.

this would all be over soon...

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Jake p.o.v

i was walking up to anne's room to get her for dinner.

i opened her door and she was asleep so i went over to her to wake her up.

"come on anne wake up it's time for dinner." i shook her.

she didn't move.

"anne come on i'm not playing get up." i shook her even more.

she still didn't move.

i started to have a panic attack, but i had to stay calm.

i yelled for my mom to call 911.

i dragged her into the bathroom and into the bathtub.

i turned the water on and tried to make her puke to get the pills out of her system.

i noticed her heart wasn't beating.

so i took her out of the bath tub and onto the bathroom floor.

i started to give her cpr, that i had learned last year at school.

"come on anne ! i need you!" i cried.

i heard the paramedics come up the stairs.

they walked through the the door, and asked me to move.

so i did.

they said she had a pulse but it was very weak.

"without you kid, she would be dead right now." the lady but her hand on my shoulder and i cried on anne's bed.

'that's what she wanted.' i thought.

they took her outside and into the ambulance.

my mom wanted me to go to the hospital with her.

but i couldn't move.

my mom already left and i was looking around her room.

i saw the notes she had left us.

i saw one with my name on it.

dear, Jake

i want you to know, i am going to miss you so much. i love you so much and i don't want you to go through everything alone, but i can't stay here anymore. i know i'm supposed to be your strong older sister that helps you with everything. but i can't do it. i am sure you will grow up to be a fine man. and i am so sorry i will not even here to see it.
to the moon and back....always.

xo,
anne

i was gripping the paper in my hands.

i ran to my room and grabbed my phone and a change of clothes and shoved it in my backpack.

i grabbed one of anne's hoodies and ran downstairs to my skateboard.

i road all the way to the hospital and ran in.

"where's my sister! i need to find her! where is she!" i cried looking around for my mother.

"sir i'm gonna need you to calm down." the male nurse talk slowly with a serious tone and sad eyes.

"what is her name?" a lady at the front desk asked me.

"annika royce." i spoke quietly catching my breath.

"room 410 on your left." the lady gave me a sad smile.

i went down the hall to her room.

i opened the door and walked in.

oh, anne.