Ocean love

Chapter five

I sat on my bed as I fought myself on whether or now I should go in the kitchen and talk to Michael who was making supper. I want to know what he has to tell me, but then again I don't really want to know, I mean what if what he wants to tell me is something to do with the fact that I am not good enough.

I stood up and walking to the door as I make my decision. It is definitely time to talk to Michael.

I take a deep breath and open the door; I walk into the kitchen and see Michael stirring something in a pot on the stove. I smelled the air and realized that he was making my favorite potato soup that he used to make back when we were in college.

I sit in a chair at the bar and said, "Something smells good." Michael turns around really fast and smiles at me.

"I remembered that you used to really like potato soup so I figured since we have the ingredients that I would make it for you." I smile as he said that, and I could see the surprise in his eyes when I did.

I took a deep breath as he stared at me. "Michael, I'm ready to talk if you still want to." His eyes lit up when I told him that, but then they dimmed a little when he looked at me in the eyes.

"Thank you for finally wanting to talk, but what has changed, I mean just this morning you refused to?" He said in confusion.

"Let's just say that I am finally ready to know."

"Oh, Alicia talked to you didn't she? She always helped you make hard decisions back in school." I smiled a little when he said that.

"Yea, it was Alicia." He smiled back at me.

"She always did give really good advice. Anyways, yea let's talk." He then grabbed a chair and sat on the other side of the bar.

"Okay, so I want to first start off by saying how sorry that I am about how stupid and ridiculous that I was back in college. Before Trace and I made the bet, I had actually already noticed you, and I had thought that you were the most beautiful girl in the world. I had actually started dating you before the bet happened, but as you remembered I hadn't had a very good time making money in college, like most college students, so three months after dating you Trace came up to me, and told me that he had a way that I could make some money really easily. I immediately agreed to it, even though I didn't know what the agreement was. Before I could even find out what I had to do for the money, I went ahead and signed a contract that Trace had made up. Considering anytime He and I made a bet we signed a contract. After I signed it he told me to go home and read it, so that I would know the terms, and everything on it. When I read it I was appealed by what it said. There was no loop hole in it. I had to break your heart, and make you feel that you were worthless or I would have to pay him double the amount that he was paying me. So I went with it, there for a little while, and I actually believed that the whole bet thing was a good thing. I'm sure you remember it, but there at the end of sophomore year and the beginning of junior year I became really arrogant, and cocky. I thought for a little while that I could shut off my real feelings and go through the bet without caring about your feelings, but I was wrong. In junior year when you ended up in hospital after you tripped down the stairs I felt like my whole world had ended. So I had went to trace, and told him I wanted to end the contract, that I couldn't be a part of this anymore because I did love you. Well he didn't really like that, he was used to getting his way back in the day, and so he started black mailing me. He said that he would tell my parents about the bet. He knew that my parents were paying for my tuition and that if they found out about this that they would stop paying for it. So I decided to continue with the bet. As we went deeper into our relationship in senior year, I decided that I really did want to marry you, but I knew that I had to continue with the bet, so I was of two minds the whole year. I went ahead and bought you the ring that I wanted to propose to you with. I figured I could follow through with the bet, but then after I told you the truth that you would take me back considering you had already agreed to be my fiancé. So I proposed you said yes, and the bet was finally ready to be in action when you gave me your virginity that night. That was the best night of my life, not because we had sex, but because I made love to the love of my life, but of course all that ended when I had to tell you about the bet the next day. I remembered seeing the pained look on your face when I told you that I didn't love you, and how I knew that I was the one who put that pained look on your face. After you ran away in pain I turned to Trace, and let him know that our friendship was over, and that I didn't want the money, because I loved you and didn't want the money that hurt you. After that I got in my truck and tried to get to the house as soon as I could, because I needed to see you and explain everything that was really happened. So when I got to the house and saw your note I figured that I would give you a little time, and that hopefully you would come with your sister and brother in law to get your stuff. So when you didn't show up, I invited my sister over for a few days to talk to her about everything that went on. She told me that I was stupid and that I should call you and go ahead and tell you about everything, so when I finally grew the balls to call you it was to late. You had already turned off your phone, and I dint know what your new number was. I wanted to come visit you at your house, but I remember you told me about your parents moving somewhere different and I didn't remember where you said it was. So I didn't know where you could possibly be. So I had no way to get in touch with you. I mean the people who knew where you lived all knew what I did to you and they wouldn't give me any information. So I figured that if we were meant to be that our paths would cross again, and they did. So it must be fate." It went deathly quit after he told me that.

I felt so many emotions going through my mind. I felt anger, betrayal, confusion, understanding, love, but my emotions were changing so fast that I didn't know what to truly think. It was all so bizarre to think about. I mean he just admitted to loving me, but it was so mixed up.

"Please, say something." He said seeming a little distressed.

"What am I supposed to say to that? I feel so many emotions right now. This is a lot to take in and I really don't know what to think about it all." He smiled sadly at me.

"I'm sorry. If I could go back and changer everything I would. I would change it all in a heartbeat. I know that you are not ready to forgive me, I can see that in your eyes, but I am willing to wait, and I am also willing to make it right to you. Please let me hang out with you this week so that I can show you that I am not the same boy that I was back in college." I stared in his beautiful grey eyes as he said this.

I searched his eyes trying to see if any of this was a trick. To see if he was telling even a small sliver of truth, and all I saw was honesty. "Ok, I'll hang out with you this week. I still don't trust you but I want to try. Just know if you mess this up that I will never ever forgive you for anything. So I guess this makes us friends."

Michael's face lit up. "Yes, that sounds great." He then stood up from his chair, walked around the bar and pulled me in to a hug. "I promise to not let you down again. I did it once before and I will never do again."

"Prove it." I said.

"Oh I will."

I just hope he was telling the truth, because I couldn't stand to be heartbroken again.