Ocean love

Chapter six

As I walked to the pool with Michael I couldn't help as everyone watched us in shock. I mean yea this is the first time that we have walked together out in publicly, willingly, but they don't have to stare. It's not like we are together, or that we are even going to be together, that ship has sailed, and I don't think it's coming back anytime soon.

"You know I wish people didn't stare at us. I mean it's not college anymore, and we are just friends." I said to Michael as we both sat down on a chair by the pool.

"Maybe they are jealous, because they know about our past romance and they want a relationship like that." He said smirking.

"Oh come on, be serious. Most all of them are married, and I've never been married in my life. It should be me that's jealous." I saw the guilty look in Michaels eyes when I said that. "Look let's just swim. This is a beautiful day so let's not ruin it." I stood up and took off my tank top and shorts, leaving me in my blue one piece swimming suit.

I looked in Michael's eyes and saw an emotion that I haven't seen in a while, love. I turned around not really wanting to be fooled by that look. For all I know he could be married. I never did ask him, and he could also have kids. So I'm not going to even acknowledge any type of feeling that goes between us. I don't want to be a homewrecker.

I dived in the water and couldn't help but instantly relax, it was just the right temperature. I floated up to the top and saw that Michael was staring at the spot I just dived in. "Are you going to come in, or are you just going to stand there staring?"

He smirked at me as he slowly removed him shirt exposing that six pack. As I stared at it I noticed that he was a whole lot bigger, muscle, than he was back in college. "Alright, but you better move over so that I want hit you when I jump in."

I backed away as took a step back, and dived smoothly into the pool. As I was standing there I saw him swim up in front of me, when he went up for breath he was right in front of me. Giving me a chance to look into his beautiful eyes, I saw him lean in and I couldn't help but lean in myself. I mean one kiss wouldn't hurt anything would it.

When our lips touched I felt a thousand sparks fly up. It was so sweet and loving, that I felt like nothing could break this moment, but I was wrong as I felt the reality of what was going on crashed into my mind.

I gasped as I pulled away quickly, "We can't do this." I said trying to catch my breath.

"Let go of all those doubts you have going on in your head. Let me love you, I know I wasn't the man that deserved you in the past, but I want to be the man that you deserve now and in the future." He looked sincere as he said this.

"I'm not ready to let myself be with you, I haven't even forgiven you yet. I'm sorry, I just need a little more time think about this." I told him.

He sighed and turned around. "I'll wait for you. I want to be the one for you; I just hope that one day you can forgive me. I will work hard to gain your trust."

I smiled at him when he turned back around and looked me in the eyes. "Thank you for understanding."

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"So you two are friends now? Does this mean that you have forgiven him?" Alicia asked me.

"I haven't forgiven him yet, but he wants to make things right so I figured that I might as well see where this is going to lead. I mean he seemed so sincere when he told me about what happened that I really want to believe him." I told her honestly.

"Well I am happy for you. You deserve to be treated well, and just to let you know if he hurts you again then I am going to castrate him." I laughed as she said that.

"This is why you are my best friend. Thank you for being my friend even though we lost contact for a little while, and I am sorry for shutting you out. I didn't tell you everything that happened last year, and I'm not ready to go in detail of what did happen, but just to let you know that I want to tell you soon." I told being honest with her.

"Hey, you don't have to tell me everything. I know you went through a rough time that year. You were always so secluded and every time I talked to you I could hear the pain in your voice. I know that man hurt you, probably more than Michael hurt you, but I am always here for you. So if you need a shoulder to cry on or just someone to simply talk to then I am here for, no matter what. Now can we go to the diner to get some lunch, my husband has been cooking the past couple of day, and can I just say that his cooking isn't so good." I rolled over in laughter when she said this, because she had shivered in actual disgust about it.

"At least he is trying."

"Yea, trying to kill me." She said.

"You are too funny. Okay let's go to the diner. I am really hungry to." We both got up and headed out the door.

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I couldn't help but to toss and turn that night, as a question that I needed an answer to kept going in my head. Did I kiss a married man? Did I kiss a man who had children? I haven't asked him these questions yet, and I really needed to know, because if he was then I wouldn't want to have anything to do with him because I was already falling in love with him again. I know it was too soon, and that I shouldn't be since he did break my heart, but I just can't help it.

I threw off my cover in frustration and looked at the clock on my bedside table and saw that it was three in the morning, and knew that I wasn't going to be any sleep tonight.

I sighed and grabbed my robe, as I slipped out the door into the kitchen. I opened up the fridge and took out a bottle of water, then sat down at the bar and opened bottle and took a sip of the water.

"So you can't sleep either." I jumped a mile up in the air spilling the water down my robe.

"Dammit Michael. Warn me next time jeez." I glared at him while I went to the sink and grabbed a rag to wipe the water off of my skin.

"Sorry, I thought you saw me, I was standing right beside the bar." He said with a smirk on his face.

"Whatever." I said. I have to admit I'm little grouchy because of what has been going through my mind.

"Hey, why so mad? What did I do to you?"

I rolled my eyes and turned toward the sink. I couldn't seem to just ask the question. Why? Because I am afraid of the answer I might get.

"Mary, come on what is going on? You were fine before you went to bed, and now you won't even look me properly in the eyes. Did I do something wrong?" I stiffened as he said this.

"Yes, there is something wrong. And I don't know if you have done anything wrong." He looked at me in confusion.

"What? You are not making any sense."

I slammed down the rag on the counter and walked up to him. "Are you leading me on? Are you married and have kids, because if you are then I won't talk to you again. I mean you have already made fall for you again..." I gasped at what I said and quickly backed away from him, but Michael didn't let me move far before he grabbed me and pulled me into a kiss.

"I'm...Not...Married...and...I...don't...have...kids." Michael told me in between kisses. "And...I...love...you...too."

The kiss deepened as Michael backed me in to his room, and backed me into his bed.

I pulled away from his lips and said, "Take me. Make me yours."