dear you,
today I'm agitated and the medication doesn't seem to be working. it's another one of those days where I want nothing but to be held by you. too bad that's the last thing you want.
24:36pm
it's in times like these that I need you, god I need you. I need you to wipe away my tears, and calm me down with quiet "shh"s and "everything will be alright"s. I need you to force me to look into those big brown eyes so you can tell me you love me. I need you to tell me that this was all a long dream, that you're still mine and I can finally wake up now. I need you to tell me that you don't love her, that she means nothing to you. I need you to tell me that I can still hold your hand everywhere and get a kiss whenever I feel like it. I need you to know how much you mean to me. I need to lace my hands through your coarse, black hair that never lays just right. I need you to rock me like you used to, side to side of course like you always did, not back and forth. I need you to sing our song to me. I need your scent that only comes from your deodorant, but is so strong to me I could pick it out in a room full of people. I need you to be here with me. I need you to hold me in your strong arms that you think look gross because of the small bumps that lay under your upper arm and your no longer toned biceps. I need you to fall asleep with me. I need you to want me back. I need you to miss me. I need you to love me. I need you so much.
but that just isn't ever going to happen. I've lost you forever.
- me (the one that's still madly in love with you but won't ever let you know that)
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Romancethis isn't meant to get many reads or to get attention, but this is for him, or well, it's about him at least. this is where my thoughts will go. this is where I can vent about a boy I was deeply in love with for nearly a year and a half and questio...
