Here For You(Zerrie Story)

Awful News

Perrie's POV

I squeezed Zayn's hand, I was really nervous about what the doctor was going to tell me considering the look on his face it didn't look like it was good news.

"What's the news?" I asked scared of the answer

I laid my free hand on my big belly, I'm eight months pregnant with a boy and we haven't picked a name yet.

Zayn gave my hand a little squeeze his attention on the doctor just like me. I was sitting on the uncomfortable chair for an ultra sound that I had just been given when the doctor came back in and said he needed to talk to us.

"Perrie, your body has just started to reject the pregnancy. There's nothing you did wrong or could've done to prevent it but this doesn't happen very often." He spoke sadly

"What does that mean?" I asked nervously

"It sadly means that you have to chose if you would like to stay healthy and not take the chance of dying or if you want to give up your baby." He looked down

The tears quickly built up my eyes. Not my baby, his rooms all set and his clothes already for goodness sake!

"You mean my baby will die if I don't."I whimpered

"Well yes but there is a slim chance you'll survive but if you do you'll have to stay at the hospital for a very long time." He explained

I took a quick glance at Zayn he was tearing up and I could tell he was trying to be strong. He gave my hand a squeeze trying to figure out my choice.

I looked back over to the doctor. "I want my baby to be safe, I want him to live, I'll suffer." I whispered hopping I was loud enough not to have to repeat myself again.

The pain in my heart was unbelievably strong. I felt like curling up in a ball and dying right then and there. I just hope I can meet my baby.

"Perrie, this is a very hard decision are you sure." He asked and I nodded slowly.

"Babe, this is what you want." You could hear the pain in Zayn's voice.

We made he arrangements for when I had to go I the hospital. I'm torn apart, I can't wait to go home and see my baby girl.

We picked up Lola from my mom and went home. Zayn and I had year stained faces but Lola is to young o notice thank God. Me and Zayn are going to haw to find away to tell Lola I'll be gone...for a very long time.

I sighed as Zayn pulled up to the house. I wobbled to the front door waiting for Zayn to unlock it. As soon as he opened the door I walked in and sat on the couch.

I placed my hand on my stomach feeling a couple kicks.

"Zayn, come here." I said quietly

"Why what's wrong." I want you to feel the baby kick.

"Me too." Lola said as her and Zayn approached me.

They placed their hands on my stomach.

"I feel him!" Lola shouted excitedly "I love you little baby, I can't wait to meet you and then we can bring you home and be a big family!" Lola cooed at my stomach

Zayn sighed and a tear rolled down my cheek. I wish I could come home with my family but who knows if I ever will.

Zayn wiped away my tears and kissed my cheek.

"Lo, go upstairs and pick out some pjs you want to wear I'll be up to give you a bath in a few minutes. Play with some toys well your waiting and you can sleep with mommy and daddy to night." Zayn said to Lola

She nodded and we watched as she skipped up the stairs. When she was out of sight Zayn sifted in his seat until we were staring into each others eyes.

"We need to talk." He said

"Yep, me first." I nodded

"I just want you to know I love you and I always will" I paused wiping away a tear that had escaped my eye. "I know you'll take good care of our babies and I want you to know I don't want you to have on regret before I leave. This is my choice , I chose to suffer."

"I love you Perrie, I love you so much. I have loved you since the minute I laid my eyes on you. Your a beautiful woman inside and out, but please Perrie let's hope for the best. I need you, my family is not complete with our you babe." He sniffled a little

"Zayn if something does happen to me I want you to know that I would want you to move on." I whispered looking into his stunning brown eyes.

"I only want you Perrie." Zayn said wrapping his arms around me and I quickly did the same to him.

"I love you."

"I you too."