The Beginning.

Problems.

15th December 2005, Sunday!

It is snowing outside. I am on my usual chair writing to my diary!

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Dear Diary,

It has been 5 years since mom and dad died.

Days are passing by . I cannot believe that I and Jess came so far with this pain! But, I am emotionless. After what happened I have nothing left, I am all broken. I am pretty sure Jess is all broken too.

After mom and dad died my life has become a naked page . All the letters from the book of my life has just automatically been erased. I don't feel anything. The most important thing that I have forgot is that , to love!

When we were small , our story books told us ,love , it has the power to do anything. It can make the strongest person on his knees , it could stop everything bad from happening. Then why did my Love not save my parents? Was my love less towards my parents?

Aunt Grace , I don't know how to thank her. She was the only person who helped me and my brother to come up till here. We are grateful for her sacrifices that she made for us. She is our everything ; our mother, father,teacher and a very loyal and trustworthy friend.

After mom died I must say Aunt has been my only friend. My best and closest friend. But I still don't know why I don't have the power to confide all my secrets to her , i still don't feel the same.

I feel lonely. I get scared. I am becoming weak.

I feel very sorry for my dad, the bravery which i was holding for so long , I cannot now! I broke his promise of being brave for the entire life! Which I cannot now. I have no energy left !

Talking about my brother. I don't know what has got into his mind, he has literally stopped talking to me.I don't know what has happened to him. Jess doesn't like it when I call him Jess anymore! We used to be best friends as far as I know. But after mom and dad passed away, Jess i am sorry Jesse has just changed!  Why? Why is he doing this to me when he knows there is no one except him in my life anymore. 

I think Jesse has also forgotten the promises that he made to dad just like I did! He is not being what he used to be. He acts weird.

Well...

I don't know what to do of myself? Sometimes I think I should die. As no one wants my presence, as it makes no difference to person whom I need at the moment when everything just came crumbling down!

Dear diary i only wish if you could have been real !

Yours -Kiara.

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My diary , it has been the only place where I can be myself, I can tell the truth, I can share everything!
My diary has been the only thing I convey my thoughts now.

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" Lunch!" Aunt called out.

I could hear Jesse leaving his room with anger. I could tell it by the way he banged the door!

Soon I was down having Lunch with Aunt Grace and Jesse.

"Jess.. oh! I am sorry Jesse how is Meg?" I tried to make conversation as it was pin drop silence in the room.

"It is none of your business Kia. And stop talking to me. I am not in the mood to start a war!"

Well.. I was the one with a great NO , I mean I could not call my brother Jess but he had the total right which I don't know who gave him to call me Kia.

No offence I love when I am being called Kia , But why does he not talk to me properly. After all I just asked him how is Meg?

To speak of Meg, Meg Richardson. She is my brother's girlfriend ! That is all I know about her but she's damn pretty . I must say my brother was very lucky to have her. I mean only with looks, I don't know how she really is.

Soon everybody finished the food and Jesse went out. I don't know where? Jesse just leaves the house when he feels so!

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The whole day was very awesome I can say I really had fun with Aunt Grace!

Aunt and I watched two movies together , I mean they were coming just one after the other . So we decided to watch them.

Aunt made the whole setup of the living room just like a theater . She really made my day.I must say she works so hard on making every moment of my life filled with joy!

1. Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone
2. Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets

These were the movies we watched.

Well luckily they both were coming , my two most favorite movies!! Jesse missed all this fun which I and Aunt had together.

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At night , the same day :

We had the usual dinner and before dinner we prayed. Actually before having every meal we pray. But I didn't !
I Lost all hopes in that person! I know I shouldn't be this rude to the one and only 'ALL MIGHTY GOD'!
But I cannot resist myself to hate him less! After all I always prayed, when mom ,of course MOM reminded me. Then why did he do this to me ? Why did he do this to us?

That is why after that horrendous night I've stopped praying even if Aunt forced me to!

We had dinner .

After having dinner I helped Auntie in the Kitchen which I always do and my brother kept watching TV!

We wished each other before going to bed!

The first thing that popped in mind when i laid myself on the bed was,

Why did mom and dad acted weird the day they got caught up in an accident? Did they knew what was going to happen? I mean, did they knew they were going to LEAVE US FOREVER?

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