CHAPTER ELEVEN
“Hey James.” Ann greeted him. After weeks of not facing each other, Ann just decided not to make it awkward since they still have movies and show.
James glared at Ann and then said, “Stop talking to me.”
“James?”
“I said STOP TALKING! Why does liars don’t have enough brain to understand that? Is that too hard for them to understand? STUPID!” James shouted right in front of her face. “FUCK!” He shouted once again.
Ann slapped him in the face. She looked at James. It was obvious that she was hurt. “What’s wrong with you?” James yelled again. Ann was crying that time. Seeing and watching him shout at her made her crying really hard.
“Don’t act as if your decrepit. Cause you not! You’re still strong and now, all you can do is to cry? BULLLSHIT! Ann, I didn’t know why I LOVED you in the first place. If only I knew that you were lying then, I should’ve said those words.” James yelled again.
“I thought you were someone that I can abreast. But no. You know what Ann? Maybe we should abrogate our relationship. It hurts enough. Ann. It hurts enough.” James spoke again.
“You think you’re the only one who’s hurting huh? Who says? It’s only you who said that, James. I’m hurting too! You’re so ludicrous! If you wanna act like this, then fine! You said enough. You want me to be lugubrious? FINE! Just try to remember James. If Yi Shuan was here, she’ll be very disappointed.” Ann corrected.
“Yi Shuan? Disappointed? Maybe you are disappointed, Ann.” James said with a chuckle in the last part.
“Yes, I am. And so as Yi Shuan if she’s here.”
“She is here, Ann. Don’t make me look like a fool. You are Yi Shuan. You made me believe that Yi Shuan is gone, but all this time, the Yi Shuan that I loved is just beside me. Remember the time that you told me what should I tell Yi Shuan when if ever she come back? I should’ve said that to Yi Shuan once she come back, because while saying that, Yi Shuan was the one I was talking too. That’s why you said that I should find someone better because you hate Ericka that time. You wanted yourself to be my present not Ericka, am I right? But you don’t need to do that, Ann. Cause that time, I was still thinking on why do I feel uneasy whenever I’m with you, why do I feel Yi Shuan’s love again. It’s all because you are her all along.” James explained. Ann is just staring at him, dumbfounded.
Ann stopped talking. She stopped listening cause at that time, she could see James’ tears again for the second time. “Where did you get that? You’re ridiculous, James!” There, she yelled at him.
“STUPID! Don’t act as if you’re innocent! Because you’re not. This is stupid Ann. How can you fool me like this?” Jamees blurted out. He has enough of this non-sense thing. He had a proof that Ann is really Yi Shuan, and that’s what he did.
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Weeks pass, Ann and James still didn’t talk to each other. Until now, no one still knows why did James walk out. But, behind his action, his date was Ann. Yes, Ann. But the date didn’t happen. Instead, Ann went with a date with her other so star on her variety show, Shoutout. In the said date with them, the closeness between Ann and Sam became obvious, as for James, he kept on looking at those pictures, even though they were hurting him.
Ann was walking down the hallway of the company when suddenly, James bumped her. “I’m sorry.” Ann bowed to him.
“Ann?” Ann looked up and saw James a fake smile formed on her lips.
“Sorry.” Ann said again then walk off but James held her wrist. “We need to talk.”
“What for, james? To yell at me again? To curse me? To tell me that I’m a liar? Go ahead. Do whatever you want.” Ann said to him. Hearing those words came from her mouth made his heart shattered into pieces.
“Then, you’re silent? Oh, did God made you mute because he didn’t want you to be a liar like me? That’s great!” Ann said sarcastically.
“Let’s just— Let’s just stop this non-sense, Ann. Stop those. It’s hurting me here.” James said as he points on his chest.
“Stop what, James? As far as I can remember, you hate me.” Ann said.
“If I hate you enough to let you go, do you hate me enough for being like this?” James said as he look deep in her eyes.
“James, maybe it’s better if we act like this. If we keep in distance, the pain will lessen. And maybe soon our hearts will find a way to meet our destiny. If ever she will come, introduce her to me like the way, I introduce my heart to you.” Ann said as tears rolled down her cheeks. She never thought that goodbyes can hurt like this.
“Ann, don’t be like this. I can’t let you go, not now.”
“You can’t let me go? Not now? What is this James? As video player that you can repeat all those words that you said to me when you were with Ericka? If you can’t let me go now, then, that means you will soon. Then, I just realize that all the waits that I made will soon be non-sense because that never meant forever.”
“Where did we lose our way, Ann?”
“Here.” Ann said as she pointed her heart. “We lose our way here because fate won’t let us. I’m so tired of this James. I’m tired. Let’s just end this.”
“Nothing’s gonna end, Ann. Nothing. I’ll keep on holding on even if it’s the last thing that I’m gonna do.” James said as he hugged her.
“Stop it, James. It hurts too much.” Ann said as she cried harder.
“Shhh... Stop crying. I’m never gonna let you go, okay? Never.” James said as he caress her back.
“I love you, always remember that.”
