just hold on, i'll carry you

chapter five

they looked at eachother then back at me. jaymi turned my head to look at his, looked me in the eyes and said "i completely understand how you feel. you need to talk to him. in private, alone. like at your house or go on a walk with him. just get alone with him and tell him how you feel." he stroked my arm and smiled at me. "i agree. boys love it when you're direct. i would know cause i'm a boy. obviously. i mean, i have a cock." we all burst into laughter and i wiped the last of my tears off my cheeks. they both grabbed one of my hands and we all skipped out the room. my arm still hurt but i thought if i was with jaymi and josh i didn't care. when we walked into the locker room there was no one there. i noticed a little blood spot on the floor and just stopped. what had happened? the two boys turned round and saw what i was looking at. "oh no. courtney, come with us. we're gonna find out what happened." josh said. they went to turn and walk away but i just couldn't move. i could handle the fact that one of the most important boys in my life, could be hurt. jaymi walked to me and hugged me from behind. "it'll all be ok. just come with us and we'll sort things out i promise." he whispered. i nodded and grabbed his hand. we walked out of the locker room and into the hall. josh was stood there with jj and george. i then noticed who was hurt. it was jj. he had a massive cut on his forehead and was in so much pain. i let go of jaymi's hand and ran over to him. "jj, what happened?! how did you get that?!" i asked him, looking at the cut, "come on, i'm taking you to the toilet to wash out that cut." i grabbed his arm and pulled him into the disabled toilet along with all three other boys. i sat him down on the toilet and got a paper towel. i wetted it down and began to clean his cut. "george, what happened? tell me now." i demanded. he sighed and i saw his eyes start to well up. i knew he felt bad and indicated to jaymi to go calm him down. "when you, jaymi and josh went into the other room, i got annoyed. i told jj it was his fault and that you would never forgive him. he shouted back and i got so angry i attacked him. i chucked a few punches and he fought back. things got serious then. i kicked him really hard and then i pushed him into the lockers. one was open and he caught his head on the corner of the locker door. it's completely my fault. i understand if you hate me. i'm so sorry." george said, just about holding in his tears. "george, it's fine. just don't do it again please. i love you monkey." i told him. this was when george first got the monkey onesie idea from. "i won't! i love you too smurfy. i'm gonna go get some fresh air, anyone coming with?" he asked. jaymi and josh went with him, leaving me alone with jj. "hey, do you want to come on a walk with me tonight?" i asked jj, bandaging up his cut. he smiled at me and said "of course, should come round at 6?" i nodded and smiled. i bandaged up his cut then we left the toilet. i looked at my watch and saw it was half an hour after end of school! it was 4:30 so i had less than two hours to get ready. i kissed his cheek and said see you later. i then ran home to get ready. one and a half hours later, it was 6 and i was ready and waiting for jj. i heard the door knock and shouted "i'll get it!" i ran down the stairs and opened the door. jj was stood there in a vest and shorts. "you ready?"