just hold on, i'll carry you

chapter four

jaymi, george and josh were stood in the doorway, staring at us. suddenly, jj pushed me away into the drum kit and shouted "i can't believe you'd jump on me like that! courtney you're pathetic!" he stormed out the room and josh followed him. jaymi and george ran over to me to see if i was alright. tears were streaming down my face and blood pouring out of my arm. when he pushed me, my arm got sliced on a cymbal. george picked me up and carried me out the room, he told me everything was going to be alright and that jj was being a faggot. when we got to the nurse she bandaged me up and gave me some painkillers to easy the pain. she asked me what happened but i couldn't snitch on jj, even after what he just did to me, i loved him too much. so i just said i fell over and cut myself on a rock. she didn't seem convinced but knew i was feeling scared and upset. george and jaymi were told to 'look after me' until i was feeling better and happier. so we left the room and the boys grabbed one hand each. whilst i was waiting for jaymi and george to come out of the canteen, jj ran up to me. "courtney, i am so sorry. i was being stupid and an idiot. please forgive me?" he begged to me. "jj, look at my arm." i said, pointing at my blood stained bandage wrapped around my arm, "you did this to me. when you pushed me into that drum kit. you shouted at me. blaming me for something i never even did. jj, i love you. but i can't forgive you. not after what you've done to me." i told him, tears still streaming down my face. "courtney, i am so sorry. i never meant for that to happen. just please.." before he could finish his sentence, jaymi and george ran up to us. "what do you want?" george said to jj. jaymi put his arms around me and hugged me, i hugged back and made tear stains down the back of his school blazer. i apologised in his ear and he told me not to worry because he didn't care unless i was happy. "i came to apologise for what i did to courtney!" i heard jj say to george. "she doesn't want your apologies. you're so disrespectful jj hamblett. i'm ashamed to be your friend some time." george told him. hearing this made me even more upset. i got so upset that i just ran out the room. "see what you've made her do?!" george shouted to jj. they both ran after me followed by jaymi and josh. i ran into the art block and went into the locker room. there was no one in there so i just burst into tears. george was the first to run in and he immediatly ran over to me and hugged me. next in was jj and jaymi, quickly followed by josh. jj grabbed george and pulled him away from me. "get off her! she doesn't need you to make her feel even worse!" jj shouted at him. "i'm sorry that i was trying to make her feel better. unlike you who caused this whole thing!" george shouted back. they kept yelling at each other, things were getting out of hand. jaymi and josh came over to me when they realised i looked scared and felt so sick. they took me out of the locker room into an empty class room and sat me down with a bucket. josh sat next to me and rubbed my arm, it felt so nice that he cared. jaymi came behind me and hugged me. he whispered in my ear "i'm sorry about them. look you will always have me and josh. we both love you and will be here for you. everything will be alright okay?" i nodded my head and pulled them into me and we had a group hug. "boys, can i tell you the thing that makes it all worse?" i asked them. they nodded and asked what it was. i sighed and looked them both in the eyes and said "i still like jj."