Reflections From Within

Memories Of A Future Wrecked

I remember the day we first met
Just a few words and nothing else
Just a way to someplace
And no chance of meeting again
And I need to be honest

But in another class I saw you again
And my mind wandered towards you
You were talking with a friend
And your voice distracted me time and time again
And instead of the teacher I spent time looking at you instead

Wondering what you were talking about
And a little annoyed that you were distracting me
I thought to ask you to stop and even say hi
But me being scared made that hard
And so you became someone I could see and never meet

But we did meet again
Not in reality but a world
That I was comfortable in
But I was also was confused
As your name I did not know

But now you are not just a name
But someone special in my life
I know things are not the same
But the happiness I felt then
Can never be taken away

So this is a just a thank you
And sorry for my behaviour
Because my mistakes robbed me of my happiness
And a friend as good as you
But not everything turned out so bad

As it changed me a little
And no more insecurities I would project
Cause once I have lost it
And maybe my only chance at that
A thing that I seeked so desperately

Someone that would care for me
And thank you for being the first
Thank you for your kindness
And for your beautiful voice
Thank you for the times that you made me happy

And sorry for being sad
When no fault of you
And sorry for all doubts I had
When I had no right
And for every mistake I ever did

But now they are just memories
Of a future that I wrecked
But thank you for doing something no one could
Giving me a glimmer of hope
For a better future

And every thank you and sorry
Would never be enough
To show you how grateful I am
So this is just a small gift
From me to you, in your gratitude forever.