Fake Love or is it real?

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I don't know if I'm going to continue with this story I enjoyed doing it but a lot of things aren't going well for me and I don't have the time or effort anymore. I may write more later on but if I do wrote again and u wanna wait stop here and don't continue what I'm about to say spoiler alert.

So long story short me and Jace date for the 3rd time and we lasted a year we were in love well I was I don't know about him but we were goals. we were sexually active at the age of 15 and 16. after a long year of I love you's and paragraphs and wanting to be together forever well I did, him on the other hand he had other intentions he lied about everything just to make me happy. we broke up and he pulled me along saying he still loved me and cared for me and is willing to try again he just needed a break well that was all a lie until I got the real reason, well I hope it's the real reason this time. after all the lies and hurt he said that he wanted to work on him self and didn't wanna serious relationship right now. he said he did love me but he stopped loving me and never wants to date again for reasons I don't even know. I over think things so what I got from what we talked about is he never loved me, he used me because he was a horny 16 years old and he doesn't give two fucks about me as well as he hates me and I did something to him and it's my fault. I thought he changed and wasn't a fuck boy anymore from where my story takes place but I was wrong. I was totally alone no one to talk to no one to comfort me he was all I had and he was the only one I trusted I cried every night for about a month before I said fuck it I want the real shit I don't want u to sugar coat it. after getting a hold of him because he blocked me on everything and refuses to talk too me I found out the real reasons. yes it stung a bit because he had no feelings for me at all and he would never give me a second chance. I didn't cry at all I was happy and relieved to know the truth and not hold on to something that's not there. I have to be honest still love him and care for him but I wouldn't say I'm in love with him or would die for him. I personally want a friendship so I have someone to talk to when the darkness comes to visit or when my parents are ass holes or even just to talk about my day have someone to talk to and not get ignored . I need him as my best friend but I know I will never get that because he doesn't care if the darkness overcomes me and because I don't know if I can trust him, the person I thought I knew him almost inside and out now I don't even know what was true and what's not. I'm Done with him and I might be done with the story since it was based off him. I've toned down my crying and it's been about once every week and it's getting better. I used to cry because I wanted him back now I cry because I just lost my best friend the one I can turn to my support system and my diary. I will never get that back
Ps this is not a part of the story so excuse my grammar, spelling and punctuation it may seem like a mess so I apologize I just typed and went from there it was more of a rant I guess but thank you all who have supported me and this book I might start something else to replace it or I might keep it so keep and eye out ❤️love: Tanis Severson better known as zombiegirlhd