Dear April,
I will never forgive myself. Therapists have done nothing for my troubled mind. I didn't mean to. I should have never gotten drunk. I should have never tried to drive. Why did I live and you not... I should have died. You should be the one alive right now. You should have lived... I wish I would have gotten to see our baby... I didn't know you were pregnant. Why didn't you tell me? It's all my fault. I don't deserve to be alive right now. Not only did I take your life but, I took the life of our unborn child. I will never forgive myself. Never. I should have never went to that party. I should have never touched a bottle. I shouldn't have convinced you to come with me either. I should have stayed home like you wanted me to. I would trade the very life I have if it meant changing the decisions I made that night. The decisions I made that caused me to lose you.
April, I love you and I miss you every day. I'm so sorry. I haven't touched the bottle since that night. I swore off drinking for good. I can hardly get behind the wheel of a car without thinking of that night. How could I have been so stupid?
