Tokyo Ghoul X Reader {Oneshots}

Black Reaper!Kaneki x Suicidal!Reader: I'm sorry...

I've read a lot of these recently, and I thought, 'Hey! Why not make one of my own!' Although it's extremely hard to come up with an original one. Since most ideas are already done, I will try my best, but if it sounds a lot like something you've read somewhere or written, I'm sorry, I tried.

IF YOU ARE EASILY TRIGGERED PLEASE DO NOT CONTINUE READING THIS! I DONT WANT ANYONE HARMING THEMSELVES! IT'S STUPID, PLEASE DON'T DO IT! ALL LIFE IS PRECIOUS AND THERE IS A WAY TO FIX EVERYTHING! YOU JUST HAVE TO FIND THE RIGHT HELP.

If you have chosen to continue, well, enjoy!
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You were sitting downstairs in the living area with your husband, (yes husband in this oneshot you two are married :D ) Kaneki Ken.
You both sat on the sofa reading, you gently lay your head on his shoulder when he quickly shrugged you off,
"Tch, (y/n) would you stop being so clingy!" You quickly scooted across the couch to the other side, as far away as possible without falling off the couch.
"Sorry..." you muttered.

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You were in the kitchen making coffee for the two of you, you made it just the way Kaneki liked it. You walked back into his office and gave it to him, he muttered something under his nose and began drinking it.
"Tch. Touka makes it better."

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He had come home from work, pissed, something went wrong and it was obvious. You walked up to him and hugged him from behind,
"What's wrong?" You asked innocently.
"It's none of your business, now get off!" He shouted.
You quickly let go of him,
"I just wanted t-"
"I DON'T CARE NOW SHUT UP!" he yells as a loud slap can be heard echoing throughout the hallway you were standing in.
He glared daggers at you as you held a hand to your already red cheek.
You just ran upstairs and locked yourself in your shared bedroom.

You sat against the door, sobs escaping your lips.
You heard footsteps coming towards the door,
"You know sometimes I wonder why I'm still married to a crybaby like you..." he growls as he walks away.

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He has been ignoring you since.

Whenever you went to bed, he would wait until you fell asleep before coming in, and even then he wouldn't face you, he would face the wall.
He hardly talked to you at all anymore, maybe only if he needed something.

Eventually you got tired of his behaviour and his words, so you just went about your daily life completely ignoring him, as he had been ignoring you. You normally lived in the house except for one difference, you pretended he wasn't there.
You were almost certain he wouldn't care if you disappeared.
And that thought almost drove you insane. Kaneki soon saw through your little plan to ignore him, so he resumed his game of ignoring you.

You now both lived as if the other wasn't there. He even started sleeping on the couch, just to avoid you.

With each day, your thoughts grew darker and darker.
You started wearing long sleeve shirts to hide the cuts you had made on your arm. Of course, Kaneki didn't notice anything.
You began getting restless. You couldn't sleep, refused to eat. You didn't want to do anything.
Again, Kaneki didn't even notice.

Then one day, while Kaneki was at work an awful idea came to your head.
In your mind, you were assuming this would end both yours and his suffering. But in reality, it was a terrible idea.

You slowly dragged yourself to the bathroom, holding onto the wall for support as you were extremely weak from not eating anything.

You walked in and locked the door. You stared at yourself in the mirror, you were pale and skinny and you had bags under your eyes.

You're so worthless (y/n)...

You sighed as you slowly reached into the cabinet, taking out a box of prescribed pills.
Just as you closed the cabinet you heard the sound of the front door opening and closing. But what surprised you was what you heard next.

"(Y/n), I'm home! We need to talk! Can you come here for a minute?"

Oh no, he's probably gotten papers for your divorce.... he's going to leave you.

You stared at the pills and poured half of the container into your hand.
You stood there for a moment, debating your decision.

"(Y/n)? (Y/n) where are you?"

The voice grew louder as footsteps came closer and closer...

Kaneki then knocked on the door,
"(Y/n) are you in there?"

Of course he found me, he's a ghoul, he knows my scent...

"(Y/n)! (Y/n) what's going on!?" His shouts grew more frantic as you didn't answer him.
He started banging harder on the door.
"(Y/N) OPEN THE DOOR RIGHT NOW!"

Quick before he gets in...

"(Y/N)! I SAID OPEN THE FUCKING DOOR!"

3...

"(Y/N) WHAT'S GOING ON IN THERE!?"

2...

"(Y/N)!"

1!

The pills slowly neared your mouth, just as you were about to put them in, the door got kicked down, making you drop the pills.
The multicoloured pills scattered across the floor, like a mosaic.
And at the door stood Kaneki,
"(Y/n) just what do you think you're doing!?"

You knelt down, picking up the pills, when Kaneki tackled you to the ground,
"(Y/N)! STOP THIS NONSENSE AT ONCE! WHY'RE YOU DOING THIS!?"
he yells in frustration, hugging you as close as he can to him.

Only now did he notice how pale and skinny you were,
"What have you done to yourself (y/n)?" He whispered as he hugged you closer.
You were shocked utterly at what he did next, he began crying.

"You idiot (y/n)! Why did you do that!"
You only cried harder into his chest as he hugged you.
"I-I'm s-sorry Ken..." you sobbed.

"Is it because of me (y/n)?" He asks,
"I'm sorry, (y/n), I really am..."

The two of you just sat there on the bathroom floor hugging each other and crying into one another's shoulders amongst the mosaic of pills and the busted down door.

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If someone asked Ken Kaneki, what was the one thing he remembered well from that day, he would've said, the fear in his heart when he saw you in that bathroom. the fear of losing you.
After that day, you both stopped ignoring each other. Kaneki even stopped making snarky remarks and was generally a lot nicer.
He returned to the bed, and you two would now always cuddle before you went to sleep.
Your health slowly improved, and within a few months you were back to normal.
And there wasn't a day when Kaneki would forget to say,
"I love you (y/n),"
And there wasn't a day when you'd forget to reply,
"I love you too Ken."

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2nd May 2016