Why Are Girls So Confusing?

Mixed Signals // june 11

Another short chapter -- because, well, short story.

Giggling, she said, "Gosh, Hunter, you're so funny."

I smiled because she was smiling. The smile that was plastered on her face was just so darn adorable; who couldn't fall for her? I looked down at the ground and let my hands dangle between my legs that were spread apart. We were both sitting on a bench in the park, waiting for a few friends.

Looking back up at her, she was staring right back at me. This made me question a lot of things, like why she was staring at me, and why me, why not a tree, what was she thinking, a variety of questions ran through my head.

But... I forgot about all of those questions when I easily got lost in her eyes, quickly forgetting everything that would have been in my mind.

Should I lean in? Should I not lean in? Am I getting the wrong message? God, why do girls do all of these things that confuse me?

All of a sudden she started waving. Was she not actually looking at me?

Quickly looking behind my shoulder, I saw our friends quickly speed walking up to us. I internally groaned, but sighed out loud. Annie looked at me with the most concerned look she had ever given me. She cocked her head to the side, and raised her eyebrows with a small frown on her face.

"What's wrong, Hunter? Did something happen?" she asked, concern quickly filling her voice. I put on a small fake smile and shook my head.

"No, nothing's wrong," I said. There it was again. My first wall of defense; lying. But god, I hated lying, especially to Annie.

She furrowed her eyebrows this time, narrowing her eyes as well, as if she was trying to read me. I tried my best not to be.. readable, but somehow, she saw through me anyways.

"Hunter." she scolded, and that told me to just tell her what was wrong. What I said next was still lying... but not fully.

"I... okay, fine. I just really love this time with you, so I blanked out."

Oh, great, there goes the second wall. You know, I'm not really good at this stuff, am I? I think my defense wall for myself only has two layers. That's pretty pathetic. Why can't I be more emotionally stable and strong? I feel like if I had more layers to me, Annie wouldn't have this much of an effect on me.

She giggled, and smiled like one of those anime people smile. Closed eyes, nice grin, and a small blush. Well... I don't exactly know how many anime characters smile like that, but... ah, you know what I mean!

After that reaction, I thought I had done something right until she exclaimed,

"You're sweet, Hunter. You're like the brother I've always wanted but never had!"

Our friends finally got over to us just after she had finished saying that sentence.

That goddamn sentence that somewhat shattered me.

Why the hell are girls so confusing?