The Blue Eyes

Four

I spent all week in the room that they offered me. I only left to go to the toilet and have a shower. Jasper tried to talk to me a few times, but I just ignored him. Most of my cuts are healed, but Ellie said that the ones that go across my hand are going to scar, nothing a bit of makeup won't hide. I have a feeling that I won't be able to ignore them all for much longer though. School starts tomorrow. As much as I didn't want to go, I am kind of looking forward to it. Hopefully I might be able to make some friends, I could go to their house and meat there parents. Parents. I have been so Vought up in what has been going on that I haven't even thought about my parents. I must have them, but I don't remember anything about them. I don't know why and I probably should feel this way, but I don't really care that I can't remember them.
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I am facing Quinn's door and an unfamiliar feeling in my stomach starts. It feels like there is something in my stomach that it trying to come out. Almost like butterflies. It has been painful to not talk to her all week, but I have to give her space after what she saw. I probably should of waited until I one hundred percent knew she was ready, but I just couldn't. I also probably should of asked my brothers if they were fine with it BEFORE and not after, because now they aren't talking to me either. Before I talk myself out of it, I knock on the door.
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*knock knock knock*
There is a knock on the door and I instantly know that it is Jasper.
"Come on Quinn. You can't hide from me forever. Can I please come in?" Jasper says, and on the last words I could of sworn I heard a little quiver. I know that I should just push what I saw into the back of my mind, and so that is what I am going to do. I stand up, straighten up the dress that Ellie had lent me and walk over to the door. Put on a smile and stand tall and then I opened it slowly.
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The door opens and as soon has I see the smile on her face, and gestures me in so I obey, leaving the butterfly's far behind.
"Do you mind if I open the curtains? It is dark and miserable in here. I might need to open a window too, it smells like someone died" Jasper made it sound like a question, but he just makes his way through the room and opens the window and curtain.
" Make yourself feel at home. It is your home after all." I manage to say. Jasper turns around and looks me up and down in a disgusted way. Somehow I don't take offence, I look home in the eye and twirl around
"What?! You don't like this dress that is two sizes too small for me? I think it looks splendid!" I finish twirling and look down at the bright yellow dress.
"I don't think that florescent yellow is your colour somehow. You will need cloths that actually fit you to go to school in tomorrow" he continues "you don't want to look like a daffodil do you? As radiant as the sun, yet as deep
As the sea" that was a poor, poor rhyme.
"What are you trying to say jasper?" I walk closer without even realising it, and then turn bright red and take a step back.
" I think that we should go to the shop and buy you some new cloths that actually fit you."
I think about it for a bit, and the hope in his face fades,
"I would love to, but I don't have any-" Before I can finish my sentence, as If jasper knows what I am about to say, he grabs my hand and pulls me out of the room and down the spiral staircase.
"That's okay! I didn't exactly excited you to have any money. I will pay for the cloths and books and other stuff you might need, and I will definitely not take no for an answer!" I try to object but mike interrupts
"Ahh the princess is out of the castle at last! I though that you were dead for a few days. Just walking past and getting a whiff of that smell is enough to make someone faint." Mike gives jasper a strange look that I think I wasn't ment to see, but it wouldn't matter anyway because I have no clue what if had meant.
"I was going to ask you what shop you would like to go to first, but would you even remember any shops?" As if jasper just realised that what he had said had sounded rude he just looked away and continued to walk.
" I can't say that I really remember any shops no."
"I think you will Like cotton on. The cloths that you were wearing when we found you, if they weren't all torn up and dirty, look like they would of been from a  shop like that."
Jasper opens the car door and I jump in. It is not a fancy car, but it is well kept it had the word Toyota 4X4 on the back, so I guess that that is the car brand. It is big and white spotless clean.

The car trip was rather quiet and so was the whole shopping trip. Not the awkward quiet but the 'I don't know what to say so let's just communicate by looks and facial expressions' kind of quiet.

Once we are back home and just sitting in the car I decide to talk first.
"How much was all of that jasper?" I ask
"I think it was around $100. Maybe a little over."
"Wow. There is no way that I am not paying you back. You can't spend that much money on me. I already owe you, Ellie, mike and the twins for my life. What's a $100 more?" There is no way that I am not paying them all back. They have been so kind and patient with me, whereas I have been a complete ass to all of them and it is time for that to change!
"Okay I will do you a deal" jasper says  "I am I little tired now, so if we argue about this in the morning then I will let you owe me. Hmmmm. $10. Yeah, I will let you owe me ten dollars, just enough for lunch! Score!" Before I can retaliate jasper jumps up and out of the car and into the house. I quickly follow his steps and go up to my room. School tomorrow. I get into my new pyjamas and lay down in bed. Let the nightmares begin...