A Collection Of Self Written Poems.

I Do Not Like My Mom's Friend's Son.

I hoped you would notice the long sideways glances I always shot you, but you never noticed. I tried to talk to you, but you flirted with other girls. Then the day you killed my heart. We always stayed up till 2 am talking, but you took one look at me and crushed me with these words. 'What's. Her . Face? ' . I'll never love another again. My heart is like stone.
Because I liked my mom's friend's son .

I dreamed of Nico di Angelo existing, because he was perfect for me. Two dark sad hearts together. The perfect ending.

It's funny that you think you know me. Because you don't. You don't know that I fill my arms up with lines . It's funny that you think you know that I am happy. When really, I have my death note in hand. My avoidance of hugs? I'm trying to make the disconnecting easier so you don't hurt so much. I'll always think it's funny.

A girl named America . She was the flag. Blue hair. White tears. Red arms. Stained with blood.
A girl named America . She was dying slowly. With red stained arms. And a blood stained neck . Goodbye America.

Luna Luna. Two sides of you. Luna Luna. Dark and Light. Luna Luna. Light fake, darkness real . Luna Luna. Hiding yourself. Luna Luna. Dark and mysterious. Luna Luna. Goodbye.

My bedtime stories are different.
There is no prince on a white horse . There is no happily ever after. There is only the demons. The princess. The dragon. My bedtime stories are of suicide and harm.

I stay quiet
to see who notices.
I stay in my mask
to see who knows me
I build my walls
to see who breaks them
I say go away
to see who stays
I do these things
to see who cares
I now know
no one cares

Everyone says to be obedient
To adults
So when you ask
Why I want
to die
Why I think
I don't matter
Why I think
no one cares
Everyone who asked that
I follow the rules
I listen to adults
The answer is because
my family doesn't see me anymore
The answer is because
my family
tells me so every day
The answer is because
everyone
trash talks me.
abandons me.
curses me.
allows me.
doesn't see me.
did this to me .
I follow the rules. I stay obedient. I don't know. Any other life.

She's the girl .
Who listens to music .
She's the girl .
Who doesn't eat .
She's the girl .
Who is invisible .
She's the girl .
Who writes the poems .
She's the girl .
Who wants to die .
She's the girl .
Who is alone .
She's the girl .
Who's screaming out loud .
For help .
Who is there ?
For her to get out with ?

Sometimes the most silent girl
Has the loudest story

It's funny
How two words can be a lie
I'm fine
It's funny
How three words can help
Are you okay
But you never know
The difference between
I'm fine
&
I'm fine

I always thought.
That war heroes
Were welcomed back.
With open arms.
So why is it .
That this people.
Are kicking me around.
Calling me names.
Punching me blue.
Turning their shoulders away.
And driving me deeper.
Into the war with myself.

No one sees me.
I fade into the shadows.
Don't need that smile.
Don't have that glimmer.
No one sees me.
Fading to shadows.

Don't need that sugar.
Don't need that fat .
Can't have that chicken.
Can't have that tea .
Think of what I can do.
If I don't eat .
I could do 100 sit-ups .
I could run 25 miles.
Can't have that sugar.
Can't have that fat.
Don't need that chicken.
Don't need that tea.